here we go again
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: SW Pennsylvania, USA
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here we go again
In the past I have tried to quit drinking many times, always went back to it. 100's of meetings, rehab, always ran back to the bar. So now I have HepC, early liver disease, I am also bipolar (this makes it more a struggle as we tend to self-medicate). Longest time sober ever just over three months, last attempt 37 days. I think I know why I failed, I always went at it alone, I think this time I need a sponsor. I have found a meeting I plan to attend Sunday morning and introduce myself. I am terrified trying program again, I am afraid of failure. I quit for a week, then picked up last evening- wow one week...it is so frustrating. Now I'm upset with myself.... you know how that goes. I am struggling big-time.
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Join Date: May 2014
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i wish i had a magic wand for you my friend but i dont what i can offer you is hope that there is a way out for you, its not always going to be as black as things are looking right now
aa can help you without doubt but you have to want it i still have that desire inside of me that wants to stay sober infact its stronger today than it was 10 years ago when i was stuck in that black hole your stuck in at the moment
get along to an aa meeting and hopefully with the right people around you it will be the start of an incredible journey
i know it all looks dark right now, and that you will feel nothing in the world can change how it is but try and just give it a chance. take the body and the mind will follow
good luck to you
aa can help you without doubt but you have to want it i still have that desire inside of me that wants to stay sober infact its stronger today than it was 10 years ago when i was stuck in that black hole your stuck in at the moment
get along to an aa meeting and hopefully with the right people around you it will be the start of an incredible journey
i know it all looks dark right now, and that you will feel nothing in the world can change how it is but try and just give it a chance. take the body and the mind will follow
good luck to you
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Join Date: Jun 2013
Location: Atlanta
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Bipolar here, too. I drank for many years to self medicate. I also tried and tried to quit drinking. It was very difficult.
When I found AA, I found people with the same problem with drink as me. We were very different in our personal lives, but so much the same when it came to alcohol. You probably know all this since you've been to meetings.
It wasn't until I got help for my mental illness that I was able to quit. I was no longer triggered by depression or mania. I was mostly stable. I lost my reason to drink. Although I will say I had some slip ups along the way.
I do hope you go to meetings and get a sponsor. I also hope you get help for your mental issues.
We can, and do, recover and I wish that for you.
When I found AA, I found people with the same problem with drink as me. We were very different in our personal lives, but so much the same when it came to alcohol. You probably know all this since you've been to meetings.
It wasn't until I got help for my mental illness that I was able to quit. I was no longer triggered by depression or mania. I was mostly stable. I lost my reason to drink. Although I will say I had some slip ups along the way.
I do hope you go to meetings and get a sponsor. I also hope you get help for your mental issues.
We can, and do, recover and I wish that for you.
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