dru1085

Forgetting if the Dallas Cowboys won or lost on sunday cause I was so drunk afterwards, fumbling hung over the next day on ESPN.com....

MelindaFlowers

I miss looking into the fridge and not feeling relief when I saw four or five beers but annoyance and worry. Drinking zero was more tempting than limiting myself to four or five. So I'd go and buy 12 more before I even opened a single one just to make sure I had enough.

And hellooooo hangover!

Crete211

GREAT IDEA/POST!

-I want to completely derail the runaway train that is my marriage.

-I would like to continue to never keep a promise or never deliver when I say I will.

-I would love to let down my parents, again...

Anddd... things are going just a little too well at work for me.

Jsbodhi

I liked to mix red wine a coca cola, but I had to switch to diet coke so I didn't get fat.
I really miss the large amount of aspartame I was consuming.... All the while thinking " this is really really bad for me"

helpimalive

I miss taking my clinking garbage bags directly from my bedroom to the dumpster behind the local grocery store in the middle of the night, so no one in my family or neighborhood would hear or see them.

GravyTrain

I miss lying, forgetting the lie, telling a different lie, forgetting that lie, thinking of the first lie again and retelling it and seeing the puzzled look on the persons face I'm talking too....

CaliButterfly

I miss instigating pointless arguments with my husband so we fight all night, go to bed angry, then regret the little I remember the next day.

Kallistia

Oh man I soooo miss going completely ballistic on my boyfriend at 2 am because he liked a picture on Facebook - in fact I miss wondering every single day if today was the day he'd realize the social drinker he started dating two years ago was actually a closet raging alcoholic and be done with the whole hostile and confusing mess.

I miss snapping and yelling at my son to get in bed when it was passed his bed time and I just wanted to be left alone because he asked if he could get in bed with me and spend time with me.

I miss barely being able to slide out of bed in the morning and being late to work every single day and having to apologize to people in the morning for the gibberish texts and e-mails I sent them.


And y'know, I don't think I've burned enough bridges at all

Incontrol15

To live for today and not care in the least about tomorrow.

Conquest

My dinner isn't burnt enough.

I love this thread.

sobriiestote

Because I'm committed to help out at a community breakfast event tomorrow and I'd really like to feel like I did this time last month...

Tired, panicky, sweaty, shaky to the point of spilling drinks I was carrying, anxious, paranoid, guilty, useless...

"Shudder" 25 days today and loving / living it : )))

Opie2713

yup.. I have really missed the feeling of complete and utter exhaustion, like I'm walking through a huge pool of water all day long. I also missed the lying, the shaking, the memory loss, the irritability, the insane idea that I'm fooling everyone but really not, and yes the vomiting and explosive diarrhea!

Such good times.

This is the BEST thread EVER!!

Opie2713

Done That!! Oh Dear God😀

wpainterw

Fly N Buy: Reasons to Pick Up. Obviously reasons not to pick up, displaying the irrationality of the whole process. How to interpret this? Is this the AV talking? Do we drink "because" we are "bad" (e.g. "selfish") or are we "bad" (e.g. "selfish", etc). because we drink or have become "alcoholic"? And does it make any difference since the main thing is not to pick up, continue drinking. Some think drinking is caused by "character defects"; others say that "character defects" are caused by drinking. Maybe it's both, as well as other "causes", like genetics, behavior of others where one lives, such as in college. The main thing is not to feel too guilty or shameful (The past is past and all you can do is avoid drinking one day at a time), develop a plan to start and maintain recovery, get help from other recovering alcoholics, counselors, do it for yourself and not for your family or kids. That would perpetuate a dependency. Suppose your spouse dies. Will you go into a "Poor Me! Nothing left to live for!" Relapse and slippery slope. Yourself! The right kind of "selfishness"! "To thy own self be true!"

W.

Incontrol15

Good reason to drink:
No need to figure out what to do with self. Short, medium, long term goals are set.
Short: make a drink
Medium: buy more booze
Long: quit drinking one day

Trees39

So I can immediately be:

Arrogant (after first sip)
Sarcastic
Vengeful (2/3 bottle)
Angry (opening second 2nd bottle)
Righteous
out of control

... And that was the fun part

And then comes:

Incoherent (lost track..)
Loose use of facial muscles and limbs
Pass out,

Come to ..in hell for the next 36 hours

growpath

24 more. Please!!!

Resetti

I'm enjoying this hangover so much I'd like to do it again tomorrow.

Incontrol15

A good reason to drink for me now would be so I could handle a job interview. Nothing like showing up with glazed eyes and alcohol in my breath. Spending an hour trying not to talk directly toward the interviewers direction.

Coming off as not confident and awkward is a sure fire way of ensuring I don't have to go through the task of starting a new job.

Dee74

part 2 is here:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-part-2-a.html

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