Cecilia44

Today I am finally taking alcohol off the table as an option. I have had several days in a row where I was able to stay sober (9 being the max), but always came up with excuses as to why "this time" would be o.k. to drink.

I just wanted to announce publicly that I am someone who truly cannot drink and I have taken it off the table as an option. This will be my last day one.

And also I am turning my life and will over to God. I cannot do this alone and I realize that me being in control doesn't work. Today is the day I get back to following His direction instead of my own.

I just wanted to thank all of you for being here for me, every day. I intend to use this forum to the fullest because that has also helped me so much. I couldn't do this without all of you and I am so grateful to be able to be a part of this wonderful community of people.

Thank you for reading.

Soberwolf

Good luck Cecilia

There is an online mtn at 9pm est in the chatroom where we discuss a topic

Serenidad

Good luck! I not only took alcohol off the table...I threw it off a cliff! Lol. You/we can do this!

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Barnumb

When it hits you hard enough and you are finally ready...you're ready. It is not easy, but it does get easier in time...or so they tell me (23 days). The choice is ultimately up to you to stop putting poison to your lips. Best of luck to you in your sobriety. Welcome to the SR!

Anna

Cecilia, I'm so glad to hear this.

When I finally decided that alcohol was no longer an option, I was surprised to find that my mind started finding new ways to deal with life.

Cecilia44

Thanks Anna. I realized that I really am a control freak and have been trying all this time to keep fitting a square peg into a round hole. Doesn't work, by the way.

AA works for me. It helps with my control issue and I now know it is why I haven't been able to stay sober for any real length of time.

And this forum helps me a lot too. I couldn't do this without everyone here and just being involved with all of you.

FreeOwl

good move!

Welcome.

sprout50

Good for you! When I took it completely off the table was when I stayed sober.

PurpleKnight

For me that was the moment my life changed for the better!!

You an do this Cecilia!!

biminiblue

Well done.

It's a lot easier to just turn everything over. I like not being God anymore

Dee74

I think that's a terrific choice Cecilia - it's absolutely what I had to do

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Soberpotamus

Great choice

I had to do the same! Remove it completely from the equation. No more alcohol, no matter what!

Like Anna, I've found that over time I've been able to adapt, and to accept life as it comes. It's also made me appreciate being alive so much more. It feels like I've truly waken up. Life isn't so hard anymore! It's exciting.

Mountainmanbob

you are an inspiration please carry on with your sobriety signed by Bob