Brother killed himself
I won't say his name for anonymity reasons.
But I called him skittles, because when we were kids he dropped all his skittles and I still had mine. I called him skittles and said I would call him it forever, and for some reason, kept that promise over 20 years later.
He was a big kid. He loved theme parks, video games, cartoons, sweets, all that stuff. He rarely touched any drugs because he'd rather have a milkshake.
He truly lived for other people. He'd back off from a girl you liked, give up a promotion, let you live in his house. Anything. If he loved you he'd give you everything he could.
The world was cruel to him, and he never took it out on anybody. I always admired him for that. Maybe he was too kind for this world.
Just wanted to share some thoughts.
But I called him skittles, because when we were kids he dropped all his skittles and I still had mine. I called him skittles and said I would call him it forever, and for some reason, kept that promise over 20 years later.
He was a big kid. He loved theme parks, video games, cartoons, sweets, all that stuff. He rarely touched any drugs because he'd rather have a milkshake.
He truly lived for other people. He'd back off from a girl you liked, give up a promotion, let you live in his house. Anything. If he loved you he'd give you everything he could.
The world was cruel to him, and he never took it out on anybody. I always admired him for that. Maybe he was too kind for this world.
Just wanted to share some thoughts.
This is a bad joke. Just got a text from a family member (who has their own drinking problem) saying they are meeting a weatherspoons to toast his life. I responded that he hardly ever drank, and if you wanted to toast him properly, you'd do it with a milkshake.
Thomas, that is beautiful to read. Honor his memory by living the very best life you can. I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I don't know what to say that might ease your pain, I would guess not much could be said that would lighten that. Know that there are so many people thinking about you right now. Please be sure to seek out support where you need it. This is all so fresh, you never know when this is going to come at you in strong waves of rage and sadness. Take care of yourself.
So very sorry for your loss. I have painfully found that there just aren't answers for a lot of questions. At least not answers in this life. Yes, your brother would want you sober and the rest of your family needs you sober. You can be a gift during this time of tragedy not a liability.
Prayer going out and God be with you
Prayer going out and God be with you
So sorry as well Thomas. Your post describing your brother was lovely, and made me almost picture him in my mind.
As Tang said, the world can be hard on sensitive souls.
Try not to be too upset about others and their drinking grieving rituals. We've all been there in our drinking days, and usually didn't mean any disrespect.
Earlyriser
As Tang said, the world can be hard on sensitive souls.
Try not to be too upset about others and their drinking grieving rituals. We've all been there in our drinking days, and usually didn't mean any disrespect.
Earlyriser
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