Small differences already...
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Small differences already...
And so onto Day 6. Last night was the first sober Saturday night I have had for years. Had cravings again around 5 to 6 but having learned the whole HALT thing from this site I went and made dinner early and it soon passed.
It's nice not having to think in the morning if I have enough wine in the house to see me through the day. Today I am more concerned if there is enough cake in the house.
It's nice remembering the movie I watched last night. Downton Abbey is on tonight and I will actually be able to watch it and remember it! Before I would watch it and record it so I could recap on Monday if I had forgotten what happened!
It's nice to wake up without feeling sick and wondering how I am going to manage to get a piece of toast down because I know I need to eat something. This morning I am looking forward to a nice big breakfast!
It's nice to think "what am I going to do today?"
It's nice not having to think in the morning if I have enough wine in the house to see me through the day. Today I am more concerned if there is enough cake in the house.
It's nice remembering the movie I watched last night. Downton Abbey is on tonight and I will actually be able to watch it and remember it! Before I would watch it and record it so I could recap on Monday if I had forgotten what happened!
It's nice to wake up without feeling sick and wondering how I am going to manage to get a piece of toast down because I know I need to eat something. This morning I am looking forward to a nice big breakfast!
It's nice to think "what am I going to do today?"
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Yes, it's called 'Freedom' ! 
One of my best feelings of sobriety-freedom came when I went to an all-afternoon and evening leaving do. Normally, I would have driven myself mad for days beforehand trying to figure out how to attend and stay relatively sober so I didn't act like a fool and that I got home safely across London afterwards. I would have tried to stick to gin with loads and loads of tonic and would have done all I could to avoid the call of the Chardonnay. Inevitably I would either weaken and put myself in danger or be totally miserable and leave early. This time, I knew I wouldn't drink so I looked forward to the event, enjoyed mixing with people I hadn't seen for a while, got home safely and remembered it all with pleasure! Simples!
You're still at the beginning, Flakey, but this journey will take you to places you've never dared dream about! Stick with it, my friend xxx
One of my best feelings of sobriety-freedom came when I went to an all-afternoon and evening leaving do. Normally, I would have driven myself mad for days beforehand trying to figure out how to attend and stay relatively sober so I didn't act like a fool and that I got home safely across London afterwards. I would have tried to stick to gin with loads and loads of tonic and would have done all I could to avoid the call of the Chardonnay. Inevitably I would either weaken and put myself in danger or be totally miserable and leave early. This time, I knew I wouldn't drink so I looked forward to the event, enjoyed mixing with people I hadn't seen for a while, got home safely and remembered it all with pleasure! Simples!
You're still at the beginning, Flakey, but this journey will take you to places you've never dared dream about! Stick with it, my friend xxx
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Thanks headlump! Just realised how much food is involved in my post! I will probably put on a few pounds over the next few weeks but that is so much better than the alternative
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Originally Posted by Flakey 
Thanks headlump! Just realised how much food is involved in my post! I will probably put on a few pounds over the next few weeks but that is so much better than the alternative
And I meant to say that what you're experiencing are not small differences in any way. They could be life-changingly huge if you let them
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It's the little reminders like that that keep me going at times. I'll add getting into a freshly made bed with clean linen, having showered and not waking at 3.00 AM in an anxiety-ridden sweat.
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Flakey, what a great post. Great to hear that you're finding pleasure in the little things, i do too, I really identify with LaV's clean linen too-first thing I did was bought a new bed, one that I can be proud of, and new linen, and a nice patchwork quilt. no wine stains, bedroom smells lovely too. New bed, new life. Day 6 and you're going strong, isn't it wonderful ?
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Flakey, Day 6!!! Fantastic work, friend! And thanks for the great post. Your cake comment cracked me up. I've got plans to make a couple of sheets of brownies "for coworkers" on Monday. 
Spontaneity is back in my life and it feels great. Wanna go for a drive? Wanna walk by the lake? Wanna stop by to check on an elderly neighbor? Wanna get new Halloween lights? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.
Keep at it, Flakey!
Spontaneity is back in my life and it feels great. Wanna go for a drive? Wanna walk by the lake? Wanna stop by to check on an elderly neighbor? Wanna get new Halloween lights? Yes. Yes. Yes. Yes.
Keep at it, Flakey!
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You know, I've been eating everything that crosses my path since I quit, and I'm still losing weight. And food is worlds better than alcohol. So eat away! I think I'll make some scones this morning, come to think of it!
And the clean linens, yes! The booze sweat smelled terrible. I washed the sheets three times a week. Way less laundry now, can't complain about that.
And the clean linens, yes! The booze sweat smelled terrible. I washed the sheets three times a week. Way less laundry now, can't complain about that.
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Congrats on day 6!!!
I eat all the time now. Its what I grab when I crave. And not healthy either. I will have to remedy that soon. but for now I am just enjoying not worry about it. After all the bad stuff I have been hearing about diet soda, I have now stopped drinking that as well. However, now its regular soda and not wisely. lol I need to go back to water today. lol But we are not drinking alcohol..thats the most important thing!
I eat all the time now. Its what I grab when I crave. And not healthy either. I will have to remedy that soon. but for now I am just enjoying not worry about it. After all the bad stuff I have been hearing about diet soda, I have now stopped drinking that as well. However, now its regular soda and not wisely. lol I need to go back to water today. lol But we are not drinking alcohol..thats the most important thing!
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