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"so how you quit hawks?"
It's called the "bulls horns" decision.
Both hurt... Just gotta decide which one you like the sound of most.
One horn says "alcoholic insanity and slow painful death"
Other horn says "take action and live"
I'd suggest a call to action might be a call to your local AA office... Get a 12th Step call happening.
Send up a prayer couldn't hurt. Even if you don't believe.... Just do it.
Desperate times need desperate measures.
It's called the "bulls horns" decision.
Both hurt... Just gotta decide which one you like the sound of most.
One horn says "alcoholic insanity and slow painful death"
Other horn says "take action and live"
I'd suggest a call to action might be a call to your local AA office... Get a 12th Step call happening.
Send up a prayer couldn't hurt. Even if you don't believe.... Just do it.
Desperate times need desperate measures.
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And some one cares Hooped .... You got two recovered alcoholics caring for you right now.
Both of us are on a different continent.
Hands around the world... Ain't the internet a marvellous thing?
Both of us are on a different continent.
Hands around the world... Ain't the internet a marvellous thing?
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i really really want off this treadmill
i stared at the clock tonight watching the thing go....tick...tick..tick....
till closing time at liquor store...
i didn't go...major thumbs up for me.
kinda like what i used to do in the morning come to think of it.
in the mornings that was the heaviest sound on earth.
i made it ...tonight.
you know what the guys at the liquor store called it?
the sick parade
and quite often the morning and evening parade were the same people
im really not trying to glorify anything here....
im just happy i didnt go buy more booze tonight
gonna be a long night here
i stared at the clock tonight watching the thing go....tick...tick..tick....
till closing time at liquor store...
i didn't go...major thumbs up for me.
kinda like what i used to do in the morning come to think of it.
in the mornings that was the heaviest sound on earth.
i made it ...tonight.
you know what the guys at the liquor store called it?
the sick parade
and quite often the morning and evening parade were the same people
im really not trying to glorify anything here....
im just happy i didnt go buy more booze tonight
gonna be a long night here
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Curl up shiver and look at shadows..... Dude.... I dunno about you, but I'm thinking a phone call and asking for some help sounds like a far far better idea than a whole day of shivering, shaking and shadows.
Can you just trust me on this advice about the phone call?
From a guy who has been exactly in the same predicament.
Can you just trust me on this advice about the phone call?
From a guy who has been exactly in the same predicament.
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I gotta go with Hawks on this one Hooped - 'tomorrow' is one of the worst words an alcoholic can utter.
I bet there's a local AA helpline too.
If you want off the treadmill you can't wait for it to stop Hopped, you have to step off
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If you want off the treadmill you can't wait for it to stop Hopped, you have to step off
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my last aa experice was not very good
i got the bb and read it cover to cover.
i also read the bible, that bagavita , and the book of Mormon
i got into aa at first it first it was cool
the old dudes though started regurgitating stories
it was like a social club for them
i got the bb and read it cover to cover.
i also read the bible, that bagavita , and the book of Mormon
i got into aa at first it first it was cool
the old dudes though started regurgitating stories
it was like a social club for them
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thanks hawks...no prob....thanks....im fine
no issues...thanks
cold turkey is a bitch as many have told me here before
and you never have to go through it again so they say
dammit though i feel like a dead man
no issues...thanks
cold turkey is a bitch as many have told me here before
and you never have to go through it again so they say
dammit though i feel like a dead man
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Like I said earlier Hooped if every suggestion has some bad history with you...ok I'm sorry about that...
but you're gonna have to accept what you're doing is not working...you need some outside help here, you're gonna have to pick the least onerous option for you.
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but you're gonna have to accept what you're doing is not working...you need some outside help here, you're gonna have to pick the least onerous option for you.
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i called those numbers dee
had a very lengthy conversation with a very nice guy
basically he told me i need rehab
7 to 10 days worth
that will not go over so good...but i need it
not much else to say but ...thanks guys
im still totally jonsing about alcohol but i never made it to the liquor store
major achievement .
so....heres the keys honeybuns....see you in 10 days
i dont want this to kill me
and its been destroying me
had a very lengthy conversation with a very nice guy
basically he told me i need rehab
7 to 10 days worth
that will not go over so good...but i need it
not much else to say but ...thanks guys
im still totally jonsing about alcohol but i never made it to the liquor store
major achievement .
so....heres the keys honeybuns....see you in 10 days
i dont want this to kill me
and its been destroying me
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cant get appt till tomorrow though....
thats the scary thought
i suppose one more night of doom under my security blanket wont kill me though eh??
or in american....huh????
bob marley used to say if its all night its got to be all right......
but i tell yah....this aint no fun at all
no fun
thats the scary thought
i suppose one more night of doom under my security blanket wont kill me though eh??
or in american....huh????
bob marley used to say if its all night its got to be all right......
but i tell yah....this aint no fun at all
no fun
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i feel worse than an old freddie frender song on rewind
'wasted days and wasted nights'
only prob for me is freddie aint runnin up there now....
only boulders dropping on of cliffs and stuff....
how can you possibly sleep to that?
'wasted days and wasted nights'
only prob for me is freddie aint runnin up there now....
only boulders dropping on of cliffs and stuff....
how can you possibly sleep to that?
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i did and i am dee....dont mean to turn this into war stories or anything.....but its definitely time for me to shape up or ship out...
at the moment in the dead of night i keep reaching out instinctively to grab a beer
very strange feeling to reach out and grab an empty space thats not there
im trying
at the moment in the dead of night i keep reaching out instinctively to grab a beer
very strange feeling to reach out and grab an empty space thats not there
im trying
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Hi hooped.
I remember in your last thread you mentioned the doc telling you that you had signs of liver damage. But that it wasn't too late to turn it round.
It still isnt too late. I know the pit of despair you are in right now man i know it very well. But you are worth more than this. You got some good advice on the phone there, I hope you make that appointment and can detox safely.
All the best
I remember in your last thread you mentioned the doc telling you that you had signs of liver damage. But that it wasn't too late to turn it round.
It still isnt too late. I know the pit of despair you are in right now man i know it very well. But you are worth more than this. You got some good advice on the phone there, I hope you make that appointment and can detox safely.
All the best
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