Kevin78

Just when I thought I was rock bottom, I relapse yet again. Apart from close to losing everything, The depression is quite bad just now. Very worried about my future and my sanity. I hope I feel fit enough to try AA tomorrow, I keep putting this off. Will try for a doctors appointment in the morning. I think this be my last chance. Sick, upset and embarrassed.

Steve123123

The fact that you wrote this so openly makes me believe in you. You have my support, my friend.

FeenixxRising

You can make this your last day one. You may want to drag yourself to AA if at all possible. Being around long-time sober people may be a good idea right now.

Soberwolf

Hi Kevin i hope this helps

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-recovery.html

jezza

Hi Kevin... hang in there fella.. You can do this!! I've had so many days ones & to be honest felt just like you.. If you can just get that 1 day under your belt you will feel so proud of yourself that it will spur you on to day 2, 3, a week etc etc.. Great if you can see your Doc, be honest & hopefuly he/she can help you get through the first few days.. Wishing you well & WELL DONE for taking this road!!

Charlie117926

Kevin:

I have been there brother. I only have 19 days, and I have had many "day ones" since January of this year. keep at it man, you can do it. The brotherhood and sisterhood on this site has helped me immensely.

BTW, I like your avatar, my family roots are straight from Aberdeen.

anattaboy

Sounds normal. Welcome Back! Save what you can- leave the rest. Today is the first day of the rest of your life and it WILL get better sober (you know).

Findingtheway

Just when i thought i had it figured out..I've fallen...More than once. And when i fall i fall down HARD.

My last drinking experience 14 days ago proves that. But again on waking up that next morning i had a choice. To continue on and give up...Or to get up and do something and TRY AGAIN!.

I chose the latter. I sincerely hope you do too.

DO NOT give UP!

MavisTheFairy13

Hi Kevin, I would try and get that gp appt and make the meeting. Fresh start. I've failed so many times over the past year but I'm getting there now. You can do this!

Dee74

Try not to 'awfulise' Kevin

You've recommitted to sobriety, you're back posting here, and you see AA in your immediate future. Those are three pretty good things.

You have every chance of making this time being your lasting recovery

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Kevin78

Thanks everyone. Managed to eat something after sleeping on and off today. Not confident of sleeping tonight for worry. I suffer horrible nightmares, Sleep paralysis and scary lucid dreams.I am determined to make this work. I think I will start reading some literature, hopefully tire me out.

PurpleKnight

You can do this Kevin, this can be your turning point, you can make it happen!!

HeadLump

You're back and trying again, Kevin. There's a part of you that must really, really want this and you deserve sobriety, my friend. Grab it with all that you have xxx

Newpathway

It sounds like you are very close to making this sobriety stick. Keep your chin up and believe you can do this. The alcohol has its claws in you but one more yank will unhook them!

Hevyn

We're all with you Kevin, and we know you can get it right this time.

Mark1014

Kevin, I hope you're able to rest this evening. It's inspiring to see that the part of you reaching for a different future is already telling you what to do. That's the winner inside! Never give up. Hope to hear from you tomorrow.

Serenidad

It's ok Kevin. I'm on day 1 too! You can do this. I can too! I'm going to AA tomorrow too. Trying to get enough courage to tell everyone I relapsed after almost 6 years of Sobriety. Things DO get better....I've been there....

Praying for you!

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Hope2014

Hey Kevin,
We have all been in your shoes. You can do this. Take it hour by hour if you have to, but don't drink and keep moving forward. It does get better.

Sasha4

I'm with you Kevin.
Get back on it.

I used to suffer from sleep paralysis, hypnogogic hallucinations, nightmares - hideous sleep problems.
I have found they are 99% gone now I don't drink.

I wish you the best xx

Thepatman

You have a plan and posting here. Rooting for you mate!