7 months still going...
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7 months still going...
It's officially after midnight in the Midwest US so I'm at 7 months. I haven't said anything about it and I'm not going to mention it to anybody in my real life since I feel that some of them looked at me as if I wanted a cookie or a trophy (to use Dee's words) everytime I mentioned my sobriety time in the past. I will shout it here but I won't mention it to anyone else.
Today was a tough day... I had to deal with something at work that reminded me of something horrific that happened to me. It happened while I was intoxicated so it confirmed my commitment to sobriety but still, it just made me feel nasty, that anxiety sour mouth. It also made me realize (again) that I have to deal with some of my issues. Ignoring them doesn't work. I had a breakthrough at the beginning of my sober journey and did talk about it a little and I think that really helped propulse me.
AV has been in and out. So annoying!
Hopefully I'll be able to fall asleep soon but I doubt it. Mind still running from today.
Today was a tough day... I had to deal with something at work that reminded me of something horrific that happened to me. It happened while I was intoxicated so it confirmed my commitment to sobriety but still, it just made me feel nasty, that anxiety sour mouth. It also made me realize (again) that I have to deal with some of my issues. Ignoring them doesn't work. I had a breakthrough at the beginning of my sober journey and did talk about it a little and I think that really helped propulse me.
AV has been in and out. So annoying!
Hopefully I'll be able to fall asleep soon but I doubt it. Mind still running from today.
Well done, Nowsthetime! I know what you mean by the 'anxiety sour mouth' (or guts, as I usually feel it), and the running mind. It's called 'monkey mind' in Buddhism. I find it helpful to do some deep slow breathing with mindfulness practice when I feel that shite coming on and /or getting worse.
I'll be seven months on Sunday, so lots of us are in this together, despite being spread out across the world. Cool!
I'll be seven months on Sunday, so lots of us are in this together, despite being spread out across the world. Cool!
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Thanks guys and thanks Dee for the trophy. I think I deserve it. It hasn't been easy so a little reward is nice ( even if it is a trophy online) specially when it is from my SR friends, the only ones who really understand this situation. Feeling ok today. Month 7, here I come!!! My hands are super sweaty though...
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