My First Post and Daily Log of Sobriety
02.27.15 :): ▽VII△VIII
Join Date: Mar 2013
Location: California
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I've been grappling with the same feeling. I have been drunk for so long that I don't remember what life is like sober. I guess when you're used to doing everything drunk, it makes sobriety look pretty bleak. But I am assured otherwise by the kind folks here. I mean, sobriety can't really be worse than being bombed and hung over all the time with nothing in between, right?
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As always, thank you to everyone for even opening this thread. The sincere lack of interest in disappointing this community has definitely been a factor in me pushing away my addictive desires. I am successfully into day 5.
Briar, I too have benefitted from the responses of our peers here. These anhedonic feelings (to again use the word that I learned from you
) are indeed so intense. I would not hesitate to call myself a cynical person, and it's so easy for me to label a life devoid of this known and dominant pleasure as "fake" or "hollow". It's honestly like I have to relearn how to live. It's like being told that I now have to only walk backwards and that I need to stop thinking that walking forwards in the better way to operate.
My addiction is not to alcohol, but I relate with such intensity to the crushing disappointment that results from the failure to stay sober. I grow so weary trying to oppose the indescribably powerful and persistent voice of my addiction. If I had one wish that had to be applied to my own life, it would be to take a spoon to my brain and have my utter fixation be removed, and to thus be free.
Briar, I too have benefitted from the responses of our peers here. These anhedonic feelings (to again use the word that I learned from you
) are indeed so intense. I would not hesitate to call myself a cynical person, and it's so easy for me to label a life devoid of this known and dominant pleasure as "fake" or "hollow". It's honestly like I have to relearn how to live. It's like being told that I now have to only walk backwards and that I need to stop thinking that walking forwards in the better way to operate.My addiction is not to alcohol, but I relate with such intensity to the crushing disappointment that results from the failure to stay sober. I grow so weary trying to oppose the indescribably powerful and persistent voice of my addiction. If I had one wish that had to be applied to my own life, it would be to take a spoon to my brain and have my utter fixation be removed, and to thus be free.
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Join Date: Aug 2012
Location: California
Posts: 1,312
Keep it up Steve! Looking forward to hearing about your successes to come!
The great thing about SR is we NEVER close! With members in every region of this planet, there is always someone here to help.
Don't hesitate to reach out if you are having cravings or thinking about using... just do it BEFORE you use!
Good Luck!
The great thing about SR is we NEVER close! With members in every region of this planet, there is always someone here to help.
Don't hesitate to reach out if you are having cravings or thinking about using... just do it BEFORE you use!
Good Luck!
Keep it going, a sober new life awaits you.
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