halfvictory

I finally can look in the mirror and stop kidding myself. I can finally stop saying , "I don't crave anything in the morning so I'm fine."

I do have a problem whether I like that or not.

The final straw was Saturday evening. Went to a festival and had many beers. Decided to get behind the wheel and drive home, even after I couldn't walk straight.

Nothing bad happened accident wise, but there are parts of the drive I can't recall. It isn't the first time I driven drunk (I'm one of those idiots who thinks he can do fine) but their was one key "first" on this drive home - I had my 8 year old daughter in the car.

We were home somewhat early and I was sitting on the couch with my wife when she said i was talking funny and did I have too much to drink. I said "yes" and she reminded me about our little girl. I looked at my wife and said, "you're right; that was totally wrong." - no argument from me.

So, now it's time. I am not good at this and I can't keep telling myself I'm doing fine.

I got lucky on that drive..next time I may not be. Time to change

Thanks for listening.

Anna

You can make the choice to not put your daughter in danger again.

Barnumb

Dodged a bullet on that one. Putting loved ones in danger is definitely a wake up call. You have many posts and have been a member for some time now. You know this is a good place to get back on the wagon, this time make it for good so something bad and irreversible happens. I wish you the best in your recovery!!

halfvictory

thanks Anna and barnumb.

I did dodge a bullet. Working on building a toolbox to keep myself clean and sober. This one is for me, first and my family second

Soberwolf

Good luck in getting/staying sober

let this be the last time sending thoughts your way

biminiblue

Are you willing to do whatever it takes to stay sober?

What does that look like to you?

I am so glad your daughter is safe today.

ScottFromWI

Remember that you have a choice as to whether or not there is a next time. Make sobriety your #1 priority and you can obtain it, we can help.

I was driving home from a visit to my hometown over the weekend and we passed an accident about halfway home on Sunday afternoon. Upon reading the news this morning, turns out it was a 19 year old driving with his 24 year old friend on a country road. Both drunk by initial toxicology, high speed, both ejected from the vehicle. 24 year old dead at the scene, 19 year old airlifted out and still in critical condition. He might get another chance too but he'll always live knowing that his drinking killed his friend.

PurpleKnight

Time to turn this around, you could have killed someone, yourself or your daughter!!

You have the choice to not go back to that place ever again!!

You can do this!!

livingnow

I get chills reading your post.
I bet you feel guilty.
I would.
Use that to your advantage.
You have a short open window now to gain sobriety.
I can tell you want it
Go for it.you are not alone....you can do this!!!!

Findingtheway

Russian roulette my friend. My last drink 11 days ended with me blacking out on a subway platform and waking up in the hospital.

What if I had fallen onto the tracks? What if I blacked out and bumped someone else onto the tracks?...

That was my final drink of my lifetime.

Stop the dangerous game before it ends in tragedy..

MavisTheFairy13

You've been very lucky and hopefully it's shocked you. You can do this! For your family and for yourself. Keep posting

aborkie

In many ways quitting is exactly about growing up.

I looked in the mirror one day and said what the hell am I doing drinking at 45? I'm not in college anymore. Time to get a life.

DoubleFelix

I am so glad that no one was hurt, halfvictory. As others have said, you can use this moment as a springboard to move yourself forward. You can do this!

halfvictory

thanks everyone. I appreciate the support. I will be getting on here each day, working my toolbox, and conquering this.