countrysidegirl

hi all

yesterday was pretty tough, I don't get my farm wage till end of next week so only have a few pennies left anyway yesterday the cravings were really intense and I was thinking of ways in which I could buy booze, I was thinking I could buy 2 cheap bottles of cider or a six pack and the voice went on and on and on

I felt intense anxiety and dread but managed to ignor the voice and cravings

at the end of the day what stopped me drinking was I knew that a few drinks yes would feel good at first but the good feeling would quickly evaporate and two weeks of being sober would be down the drain, I would also end up feeling really depressed and have a hang over I didn't want to feel like that so I told the voice to do one and managed to get through it

I also started my period and that explained the feelings of anxiety I always end up drinking prior to my period starting as my periods do make my bpd and mental health worse I have noticed a pattern with drinking and being on my period I'm not sure if any of you lasses on here have a similar pattern ?

I felt so proud of myself that I didn't buy drink , I do feel down today but like I have said its because I'm on but at least I'm sober and on day 15

I'm also on day 11 of being smoke free, the e cig I'm using has been a real saviour as far as not having any smokes

I'm also going to my 4th AA meeting later tonight

thanks to all of you for your support on here

charlotte x

DG0409

I did notice 'that time of month' was harder for me as far as feeling super moody. Especialy during early recovery. PMS was really horrible the first few months I went through it sober. But it did get a little better each month. It's still not fun, but it doesn't mean a few days in bed crying and just doing anything to NOT drink. So, yes, I think it's normal to struggle with that. I also think that with more sober time, it will probably become easier for you.

Way to go on 15 days!!

Soberwolf

15 Days is fantastic well done

PurpleKnight

Great job on 15 Days!!

1newcreation

Congrats on 2 wks! Fantastic
Don't give up 5 mins or hrs or wks or mths & even yrs before the miracle happens.

Stayingsober72

Right on Charlotte! 15 days here too. We are sobriety sisters! Well done for resisting the urge, I had the urge yesterday too but declined and I feel stronger for it. Have a great meeting!

Dee74

Congratulations on 2 weeks Charlotte

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