PickleMan

Well, back to Day 1 for me, but I feel better about it this time than I did last time. Last time I tried just going through it all by myself and not telling anyone what I was going through and what I would be dealing with in terms of w/d symptoms.

This time, I came clean to my significant other about the extent of my use. I have surrendered control of my bank account and finances to her so that my opportunity to purchase drugs is significantly decreased to near 0%

I am also committing myself to a 90 in 90 for the first time in about 3-4 years. It was successful for me until I stopped attending the fellowship, so I look forward to embracing the fellowship in an "all in" style once again.

Anyways, clean date 10-8-2014. This is it. I appreciate all the love and support I have already received here at SR and look forward to being able to share milestones in my recovery as well as help fellow members in their recovery process!

Soberwolf

Well done pickleman hope this is the last time you gotta go through this dude


Sending all the luck in the world friend

PickleMan

Thanks man, this is really the last chance I have before I have to be institutionalized

So I either man-up and get a handle on it myself, or it's going to be prison (if I get caught) or a 90-day treatment center. Both options I would rather not have to go through

I am hoping today marks the first day of the rest of my life.

Dee74

I hope this will be your turning point pickleman

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PickleMan

Thanks Dee!

MarathonMan

Good luck pickleman, from what I've read the 90 in 90 tends to have good results so hopefully with a commitment like that this could be the time you get it right

PickleMan

In my experience it is really the only way to ensure having success with the AA program

I know other people CAN have success with other methods, but the best odds come to people who do a meeting every single day

FreeOwl

you can do it, pickleman.

PickleMan

One day at a time, right?

I am just not looking forward to working Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. Friday shouldnt be too bad as it is a short shift, but Saturday and Sunday are longer shifts and we'll be busy as all hell both days.

I am really going to be counting on God's grace to get me through this weekend!

Change4good

You can do this. Today is a turning point. Congrats on a great decision.

Sloth

Best of luck pickleman. You got this.

PurpleKnight

You can this!! This can be your last Day 1!!

SoberLeigh

You can do this, PickleMan. Glad to hear that you are building a support system.

One day at a time; those days will mount up.

PickleMan

Absolutely is!!

I cant wait to be able to hold my head up high again!

"it's been awhile"- staind

Blood500

"Change takes place in you, through you; in your awareness, it happens. You don't do it. When you're doing it, it's a bad sign; it won't last."
~ Anthony De' Mello

...Just something interesting I thought on while in a similar cycle. This is from a very different school of thought, its not for everyone. Wish you the best, keep posting.

PickleMan

Well I am working through Day 3. Today has sucked. Been in bed watching movies all day, drinking water, and taking hot baths. Tonight will probably be much of the same but with much less privacy involved.

I cant wait for it to be Monday. I am thinking I should be feeling much better by Monday morning

PurpleKnight

Day 6 definitely felt much better than Day 3 for me!!

Hang in there!! You're doing great!!

Mrrryah1

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PickleMan

Tonight is shaping up to be pure hell

Legs wont stop moving. I have that classic "restless body syndrome"... these next 2 nights arent looking too good right now

Dee74

I have RLS. Bananas can help...and tonic water (if you're ok with quinine).

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