PolarBlue

My binge stopped around 10pm last night. Today it feels like my brain is frying. Tingling sensations in my hands. Short of breath. Stomach pains. No appetite. Stress. Depression and a bit of panic. Feeling of doom.

I don't even know what day I started drinking on. I just remember running back and forth to the store and getting mixed up in drama that I should have just left alone. I really hope I'm able to stay stopped this time. I'm out of chocolate and every store in town sells beer.

Taking5

Yep had them all and then some.

PurpleKnight

Felt like death many times after a hard night!!

You don't have to go back to that place though, you can turn a corner and carve out a new chapter in your life!!

Dee74

I remember all that stuff very well.

Still, it's best to see a Medico if you're concerned PB.

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Hevyn

Yes, PB - all are very familiar.

You sound disgusted and ready to break free of it. We are with you.

PolarBlue

I don't have health insurance now so I'm just riding it out. Last time I quit it too close to 3 days before I felt right again. It's the first time I felt this bad off only beer. Further proof my body can't handle alcohol anymore.

Raider

Mmmmmm. Don't miss that stuff.

sthlondonab

Well done on stopping. The horrible physical stuff will pass and things will start to feel better. Time feels like your enemy but it is your friend. Keep going.

Do you have a friend who could bring you some chocolate round so you don't have to visit the store? Sugar is always good.

PolarBlue

I thought I was ready before. I felt bad last night and forced down the last beer. Big mistake.

I hope this is the time.

oldsoul1122

And those dry heaves. You don't ever have to go through that again.

Soberwolf

Yes i remember i wont forget.....it will get better hang in there

PolarBlue

I think I'll be ok to go in the morning. Right now I wouldn't trust myself not to pick up some beer just to kill this anxiety. Cookies may work.

Oldsoul those dry heaves are the worst. Last time I didn't actually start puking until the second day sober.

AncientMariner

Get it out! Get it out for good!!

RumHound

Thanks for posting, PB, I can relate. I had some horrible hangovers.

But one day I just couldn't do it anymore. I got some help. I got off the merry-go-round.

Do you have a plan for recovery?

Duffster

Yes, I can relate to each and every symptom. I am still prone to mild anxiety but that dreadful feeling of doom only happened after a binge. That to me was the worst symptom of all. Try to remember how you're feeling now next time you're tempted - it can be easy to forget.

PolarBlue

I plan on giving it my all this time. After failing a couple times I think I'm learning what not to do and how not to think. I thought about AA, but it sounds a little intimidating from the stories I've heard. I really don't feel comfortable around a bunch of new people sober and I'm not sure about this higher power thing.

But I know I'll never get back on my feet unless I stay stopped. My head has to be clear for job interviews and life in general. It's pretty much a matter of life or death, and I'd rather not choose the latter.

Notmyrealname

The one that used to freak me out was trying to go to sleep and having jolts in my central nervous system so I'd wake up and then I'd be soaked in sweat and having horrible dreams. That was pretty awful. I found vigorous exercise helped with the nervous system but was probably a little risky with the blood pressure. Catch 22..

PolarBlue

I'm having those sweats now. I've been on here pretty much all day trying to keep my mind occupied until it passes. I know someone wants to tell em to shut up and go to bed already.

SoberComposer

Yea, many mornings like that over here too.

The crazy thing about ditching the alcohol is that you feel and become much better in every way!

It's hard in the beginning and you have to grit and bear the struggle but after 30 days and beyond you really notice the difference. These horrible memories will become your evidence of why it would be best to simply not drink alcohol anymore.

Best of luck PolarBlue! You can do this, I promise.

Stayingsober72

[QUOTE=PolarBlue;4934126]My binge stopped around 10pm last night. Today it feels like my brain is frying. Tingling sensations in my hands. Short of breath. Stomach pains. No appetite. Stress. Depression and a bit of panic. Feeling of doom.

I don't even know what day I started drinking on. I just remember running back and forth to the store and getting mixed up in drama that I should have just left alone. I really hope I'm able to stay stopped this time. I'm out of chocolate and every store in town sells beer. [/QUOTE

Ohhhhhh yeah. The come down from the last binge was the reason I stopped drinking. I felt like I was going to die. I never want to feel like that again.