Failed again
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Failed again
Back to day 1. At least it's confirmed how much I want to do this. I have a headache, upset tummy and it wasn't enjoyable and didn't solve any of my problems! Stress got the better of me. I guess old habits die hard. Anyway off to friends tonight for girlie night in, will be driving and taking non-alcoholic drink with me. Really need to get a grip 
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Mavis it took 3 months from me admitting i was an alcoholic to getting to day 446 today
i was in a bad bad way before i finally stopped
Mavis you can do this theres a song called inner ninja by classified i think you should youtube and have a listen or starting over by macklemore !!
big hugs need my anti x factor pal 3 days of simon cowell Mavis helllllp lol
good luck Mavis you know you can do it
i was in a bad bad way before i finally stopped
Mavis you can do this theres a song called inner ninja by classified i think you should youtube and have a listen or starting over by macklemore !!
big hugs need my anti x factor pal 3 days of simon cowell Mavis helllllp lol
good luck Mavis you know you can do it
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I think success lies in two main things Mavis - finding enough support, and using that support when you need to, before you drink; and two - making the necessary changes in your life to back up your commitment to being sober.
If stress is a problem why not look into other healthier ways to beat that stress?
D
If stress is a problem why not look into other healthier ways to beat that stress?
D
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Thanks Dee, I only have my husband for support and he's so laid back and doesn't seem to think I've got a big problem. I have a hypno cd for stress which I've been using, I suffer from depression though and there are always going to be bad days. I'm hoping when my foot is fully recovered that I will be able to start exercising which will help. Also thinking about yoga
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And omg my bf is so laid back too !!! He dosent care if I quit don't quit it's kind of annoying don't we wish someone would do the work for us! Nope we have to do it! Lol I did make him hide my stuff the other day it seems to be working so far! Much love!
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Soberwolf,
I listened to Inner Ninja. Love it. Makes me want to dance my power! A very happy song. Thank you, I'm adding it to my playlist.
Mavis -
I also have people around me that don't consider that I have a problem with alcohol; there is no one in my life who I find myself accountable to for sobriety.
Because of this, I found that I am only successfully sober when attending AA. Don't know if you've tried it. There are aspects of it that aren't ideal for me, but the idea of a sober community, of people who hug me when I'm struggling and hug me when I'm succeeding, and to whom I am publicly accountable makes all the difference for me in maintaining sobriety. If I were just trying it on my own, at home, I know (from experience) that I would drop it, like a thousand other "self-improvement schemes" - wait, wasn't I all afire to be gluten free? remember when I was a vegan? how about the Insanity video workouts?
But getting sober isn't just a "self-improvement scheme" for me. I've come to understand that it is life and death, as I've seen my progress into alcoholism. This last time I relapsed, I had my first blackout. I know some folks on here have had many, and yes - at home, drinking wine - there are a lot of watched movies that I don't really remember, but this was a full on black out, out in public, talking and moving and fighting with my man. No memory of any of it. This frightened me profoundly - I've read stories on here of people driving in that state, or arguing in a blackout frenzy and stabbing a loved one. I cannot allow the risk of being fully out of my own control. And that's a little more dire than my having flat abs or organized paperwork (as examples of "self-improvement goals").
So, I had to go all in. And AA has provided the framework for that and the community that cares. I love this website and spend hours on here, but - in the end - I could walk away and just never post again, and no one would bang on the door of my house to see if I'm ok. I need people in my town to care that I'm sober. That's my experience, and - of course - we all find our own path, but when I see your happy little fairy avatar & read your postings, I have this feeling inside that you really, really want this.
Go to any lengths, Mavis!
I listened to Inner Ninja. Love it. Makes me want to dance my power! A very happy song. Thank you, I'm adding it to my playlist.
Mavis -
I also have people around me that don't consider that I have a problem with alcohol; there is no one in my life who I find myself accountable to for sobriety.
Because of this, I found that I am only successfully sober when attending AA. Don't know if you've tried it. There are aspects of it that aren't ideal for me, but the idea of a sober community, of people who hug me when I'm struggling and hug me when I'm succeeding, and to whom I am publicly accountable makes all the difference for me in maintaining sobriety. If I were just trying it on my own, at home, I know (from experience) that I would drop it, like a thousand other "self-improvement schemes" - wait, wasn't I all afire to be gluten free? remember when I was a vegan? how about the Insanity video workouts?
But getting sober isn't just a "self-improvement scheme" for me. I've come to understand that it is life and death, as I've seen my progress into alcoholism. This last time I relapsed, I had my first blackout. I know some folks on here have had many, and yes - at home, drinking wine - there are a lot of watched movies that I don't really remember, but this was a full on black out, out in public, talking and moving and fighting with my man. No memory of any of it. This frightened me profoundly - I've read stories on here of people driving in that state, or arguing in a blackout frenzy and stabbing a loved one. I cannot allow the risk of being fully out of my own control. And that's a little more dire than my having flat abs or organized paperwork (as examples of "self-improvement goals").
So, I had to go all in. And AA has provided the framework for that and the community that cares. I love this website and spend hours on here, but - in the end - I could walk away and just never post again, and no one would bang on the door of my house to see if I'm ok. I need people in my town to care that I'm sober. That's my experience, and - of course - we all find our own path, but when I see your happy little fairy avatar & read your postings, I have this feeling inside that you really, really want this.
Go to any lengths, Mavis!
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
I think success lies in two main things Mavis - finding enough support, and using that support when you need to, before you drink; and two - making the necessary changes in your life to back up your commitment to being sober.
If stress is a problem why not look into other healthier ways to beat that stress?
D
If stress is a problem why not look into other healthier ways to beat that stress?
D
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Dee's comments are great.
You need to find and use the support you have before you drink.
And, important, you need to make changes in your life that work with a new sober life.
I'm glad you're back, Mavis!
You need to find and use the support you have before you drink.
And, important, you need to make changes in your life that work with a new sober life.
I'm glad you're back, Mavis!
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