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These post literally brought years to my eyes as I two have two beautiful little angels that are my hole world. I chose to put the bottle down even though I loved it so much. Today my life is way better and they way my girls look at me is worth all of it. You can do this Jeremy. Do it for you and in turn for her. Anyone can be a dad. You took the first step to being a father. Congratulations buddy. Best of luck to you.
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Hello all, I've gotten day labor 3 of the last 4 days. I am trying to pay my power bill and tie up some loose ends and then I am checking this man into inpatient care. Its so close I can taste it, and the ray of hope I've been waiting for.
Feeling better now, the bitterness and anger are starting to subside. I think I am slowly learning that things are what they are. I can never take back the past, but I can truly effect my future.
The days are lonely at times, can't lie I miss alcohol at times, the nights are even worse. However, my resolve is strong, gotta solve some financial issues and buy myself time for inpatient care. Lots of things can go wrong this month, or next month so just trying to maneuver and find a happy place.
One of my temp jobs showed me something, it was like looking in the mirror. Some poor soul abandon their house and disappeared to who knows where they were an addict. We had to clean the house out, there was rat poop everywhere, clutter 4 feet high, needles and tons of alcohol. The real kicker was us finding drugs in the house. This poor lady had it bad, and has disappeared off the earth, nobody knows what happened to her. And here I am packing up her entire life and throwing away pictures of family and friends and happy times, and tossing most of her stuff. So sad, I could of cried it really brought me to my knees and made me realize why I need to get better. Things really can get worse.
Feeling better now, the bitterness and anger are starting to subside. I think I am slowly learning that things are what they are. I can never take back the past, but I can truly effect my future.
The days are lonely at times, can't lie I miss alcohol at times, the nights are even worse. However, my resolve is strong, gotta solve some financial issues and buy myself time for inpatient care. Lots of things can go wrong this month, or next month so just trying to maneuver and find a happy place.
One of my temp jobs showed me something, it was like looking in the mirror. Some poor soul abandon their house and disappeared to who knows where they were an addict. We had to clean the house out, there was rat poop everywhere, clutter 4 feet high, needles and tons of alcohol. The real kicker was us finding drugs in the house. This poor lady had it bad, and has disappeared off the earth, nobody knows what happened to her. And here I am packing up her entire life and throwing away pictures of family and friends and happy times, and tossing most of her stuff. So sad, I could of cried it really brought me to my knees and made me realize why I need to get better. Things really can get worse.
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Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy 
I am trying to pay my power bill and tie up some loose ends and then I am checking this man into inpatient care. Its so close I can taste it, and the ray of hope I've been waiting for.
Feeling better now, the bitterness and anger are starting to subside
The days are lonely at times, can't lie I miss alcohol at times, the nights are even worse
My resolve is strong
One of my temp jobs showed me something, it was like looking in the mirror
And here I am packing up her entire life and throwing away pictures of family and friends and happy times, and tossing most of her stuff
Things really can get worse.
Feeling better now, the bitterness and anger are starting to subside
The days are lonely at times, can't lie I miss alcohol at times, the nights are even worse
My resolve is strong
One of my temp jobs showed me something, it was like looking in the mirror
And here I am packing up her entire life and throwing away pictures of family and friends and happy times, and tossing most of her stuff
Things really can get worse.
you say your resolve is strong yet at times you miss alcohol ?
Im glad you really understand that this really can get worse
J im saying this
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Originally Posted by Thatdeliveryguy
I am trying to pay my power bill and tie up some loose ends and then I am checking this man into inpatient care. Its so close I can taste it, and the ray of hope I've been waiting for.
Feeling better now, the bitterness and anger are starting to subside
The days are lonely at times, can't lie I miss alcohol at times, the nights are even worse
My resolve is strong
One of my temp jobs showed me something, it was like looking in the mirror
And here I am packing up her entire life and throwing away pictures of family and friends and happy times, and tossing most of her stuff
Things really can get worse.
Feeling better now, the bitterness and anger are starting to subside
The days are lonely at times, can't lie I miss alcohol at times, the nights are even worse
My resolve is strong
One of my temp jobs showed me something, it was like looking in the mirror
And here I am packing up her entire life and throwing away pictures of family and friends and happy times, and tossing most of her stuff
Things really can get worse.
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I am angry at the situation soberwolf, it was thrust on me after years of abuse. Yes, I miss alcohol, but missing alcohol doesn't affect my resolve. Actually the fact I miss alcohol strengthens my resolve. It shows me why I need inpatient so much, the fact I could of lost so much but still miss the substance that put me where I am is a pure and unadulterated sign that I really need serious help.
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I hold you in my awareness today TDG, sending you hope and strength to find the power to heal....
Keep at it, all is not lost. Hold faith and embrace the power beyond you.... ask for help each morning.... give thanks at the end of each day.... and never give up.
Keep at it, all is not lost. Hold faith and embrace the power beyond you.... ask for help each morning.... give thanks at the end of each day.... and never give up.
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