A082586

Hey everyone -

Have passively viewed these forums in the past.
Just wanted to post I guess if nothing else than to get this off my chest and hopefully some support.

Basically I'm in my late 20s, partied a lot in college and whatnot. Never drank daily, but am also able to go out for dinner and have a beer or glass of wine without needed to get drunk. Currently post-grad educated and in a good job, drinking has never made me miss work since I don't go crazy when I know I have something to do the next day

I guess over the past couple years I have drank less in total frequency, but when I do I just go on a couple day bender and then it takes me like 3-5 days to get feeling 'normal' again. Sleep is the worst - makes my anxiety worse when I can't sleep and just makes the cycle awful.

I seem to just go overboard when I know that I have 3-4 days off in a row or something - which is awful because of how much like garbage I feel on my days off for basically 2 days of a drunken stupor.

Just sucks because I enjoy the social beer or two every once in a while, but every once in a while like I said when I know I have time off something just snaps and I drink like there is no tomorrow - which isn't even that fun at the time or definitely after.

I guess I'm getting closer to the realization that I might need to just cut alcohol out all together.

I don't know that I am mentally ready to go to AA or anything right now, but I do know that these episodes aren't good - and I hate the way that I feel right now.

Sorry for the length post, again just wanted to get this off my chest.

Soberwolf

Hi A

Getting sober is hard but with time effort and a willingness to accept that alcohol just aint doing it no more

youl get there

Nice to meet you

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum!! You'll find loads of support here on SR!!

Briseis

Hi, A0

I posted something similar when I first joined (9 days ago), and someone pointed out to me the active word in my post was "yet."

You've yet to miss work. You've yet to become a daily drinker. Maybe none of these things will happen, but the fact you're here posting shows you've a concern things may get out of hand.

They just haven't. Yet.

Thanks for sharing your story--it wasn't too long at all!

SoberLeigh

Welcome, A08, to the posting side of SR.

If you have been lurking for a while you probably already know there is an abundance on alcoholism on this site and how understanding and encouraging the members are.

Again, welcome.

luvmygirls

Welcome, A082586! I too had a major case of the "yets." I still let those thoughts creep in sometimes because I was still in the functional stage of my addiction when I stopped drinking about 2 weeks ago, but posting here helps me a LOT.

A082586

wow thanks for the encouraging posts already everyone.
I'm just praying I can get some sleep tonight. The insomnia and the mental guilt and anxiety and sweats are the worst part of the 'hangovers that last 3-4 days that I have slowly realized are no longer hangovers'

Thanks for the support

SoberLeigh

Ooops.

Meant - an abundance of information on alcoholism on this site.