Hello Friends...wish my luck.
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Hello Friends...wish my luck.
I'm SO TIRED of letting alcohol control my life. Every night I go to bed buzzed. My sweet wife and 9 year-old see me drink, but I do quite the job of appearing to do it in moderation. I'm sick, but what's sad, I'm not sure I'm ready to quit. It's such a crutch for me. I have mastered the ability to appear fine when drinking.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers.
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It just feels good to get this off my chest because I'm so alone with these feelings. I KNOW I'm an alcoholic, but keep telling myself I an convert to moderation. I'm telling myself this as I type. It's exhausting and coming to these boards will hopefully help. I've read several threads and the people on here are amazing.
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I'm SO TIRED of letting alcohol control my life. Every night I go to bed buzzed. My sweet wife and 9 year-old see me drink, but I do quite the job of appearing to do it in moderation. I'm sick, but what's sad, I'm not sure I'm ready to quit. It's such a crutch for me. I have mastered the ability to appear fine when drinking.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers.
Being tired of alcohol is the beginning on this great battle to regain your life back!! Try it... try sobering-up for only one week!!! 7 days my friend... and see how you feel about your life! I guaranty you will want some more!!
Maybe you will fall back.... but only to realize how sad you've become when drunk...
Getting up without the guilt feeling is, for me, my everyday win... and being a better dad to my kids is what will prevent me from falling back to this prison!
Set yourself a date... and try it! 1 week, 7 days.... I dare you!
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One of the great myths in our drinking is that "we have mastered it, and no one can tell how drunk/buzzed we are"....believe me, people can tell. We thought we were fooling people, we only fooled ourselves. Denial is a large by product of active drinking. Wishing you only the best. Sobriety is absolutely wonderful.
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I'm SO TIRED of letting alcohol control my life. Every night I go to bed buzzed. My sweet wife and 9 year-old see me drink, but I do quite the job of appearing to do it in moderation. I'm sick, but what's sad, I'm not sure I'm ready to quit. It's such a crutch for me. I have mastered the ability to appear fine when drinking.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers.
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One of the great myths in our drinking is that "we have mastered it, and no one can tell how drunk/buzzed we are"....believe me, people can tell. We thought we were fooling people, we only fooled ourselves. Denial is a large by product of active drinking. Wishing you only the best. Sobriety is absolutely wonderful.
And thanks guys, for all the welcomes. Means a lot to me.
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'Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers'
Thinking of you and hoping you can build on that feeling of being tired of the drink, life is so much better without. I have been battling for a few years now, I totally understand your thinking about not being ready. I feel almost relieved that I dont have to drink tonight, how odd is that! Good luck to you Dx
Thinking of you and hoping you can build on that feeling of being tired of the drink, life is so much better without. I have been battling for a few years now, I totally understand your thinking about not being ready. I feel almost relieved that I dont have to drink tonight, how odd is that! Good luck to you Dx
Welcome! I can definitely relate to your post (including the box of wine--cheaper and easier to dispose of than bottles, plus it holds more). I also held it together in front of my family until I went to bed, but even that was becoming a struggle. Coming here a few weeks ago was a HUGE breakthrough for me. It hasn't been easy, but there is so much support and understanding here. I'm glad you posted.
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Welcome! I can definitely relate to your post (including the box of wine--cheaper and easier to dispose of than bottles, plus it holds more). I also held it together in front of my family until I went to bed, but even that was becoming a struggle. Coming here a few weeks ago was a HUGE breakthrough for me. It hasn't been easy, but there is so much support and understanding here. I'm glad you posted.
I'm SO TIRED of letting alcohol control my life. Every night I go to bed buzzed. My sweet wife and 9 year-old see me drink, but I do quite the job of appearing to do it in moderation. I'm sick, but what's sad, I'm not sure I'm ready to quit. It's such a crutch for me. I have mastered the ability to appear fine when drinking.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers.
Anyway, I just wanted to say a quick hello and ask for thoughts and prayers.
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Hi there! Last year, I found myself hitting the wine after my wife and then 9 year old daughter went to bed. I used to worry what would happen if there was a crisis in the middle of the night and I was too drunk to cope. I fell around the house, dutifully 'tidying up'. Then pulled myself through hungover days and got it together in time for evening with the family and then drank again till bedtime. It seemed like there could be little else to life... but there is. Lots of small things, seen through clearer eyes, and a slow awakening, adding up to a slow shift towards a better way of living.
These forums are a great help, and stopping drinking lifts a huge weight of anxiety right out of our lives - we get to see and work on the real sources of whatever anxiety remains.
Good luck - everyone here will be rooting for you.
These forums are a great help, and stopping drinking lifts a huge weight of anxiety right out of our lives - we get to see and work on the real sources of whatever anxiety remains.
Good luck - everyone here will be rooting for you.
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