30 Days Sober Log
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Annnnnd I'm there. Day 30. Booya.
Unfortunately, energy levels are back down again. They definitely come in waves, I wish I could figure out how to keep them perpetually high. That's life I guess.
Overall though I feel much better. I'm fitter and stronger than ever before, and the future looks bright. Big thanks to the community for letting me ramble on here, and to those who stopped by with encouragement.
I think my record is in the high 30's. So, that seems as good a reason as any to keep going & get to the 40 day mark. Could a moderator please amend the thread title to 30 Days Sober Log: Now Going for 40.
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Unfortunately, energy levels are back down again. They definitely come in waves, I wish I could figure out how to keep them perpetually high. That's life I guess.
Overall though I feel much better. I'm fitter and stronger than ever before, and the future looks bright. Big thanks to the community for letting me ramble on here, and to those who stopped by with encouragement.
I think my record is in the high 30's. So, that seems as good a reason as any to keep going & get to the 40 day mark. Could a moderator please amend the thread title to 30 Days Sober Log: Now Going for 40.
Thanks!
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Cravings. Every now & then I just detach, & "spoil" myself. I'm lying in bed, eating a pizza watching documentaries. I have to work the night shift and don't feel like it, so I'm probably doing this to comfort myself.
These are the times I'd drink. I drank alone like this all the time.
Just posting some thoughts to help me ride it out.
These are the times I'd drink. I drank alone like this all the time.
Just posting some thoughts to help me ride it out.
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Great job, I'm hoping I can get there in, well 28 days...
On the energy thing, you might want to read Heartcore thread on flare-ups, it is very interesting and with you being at 30 days you could be experiencing this.
Keep it going! Remember nothing good ever comes from alcohol, nothing.
On the energy thing, you might want to read Heartcore thread on flare-ups, it is very interesting and with you being at 30 days you could be experiencing this.
Keep it going! Remember nothing good ever comes from alcohol, nothing.
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Originally Posted by Magellan 
Great job, I'm hoping I can get there in, well 28 days...
On the energy thing, you might want to read Heartcore thread on flare-ups, it is very interesting and with you being at 30 days you could be experiencing this.
Keep it going! Remember nothing good ever comes from alcohol, nothing.
On the energy thing, you might want to read Heartcore thread on flare-ups, it is very interesting and with you being at 30 days you could be experiencing this.
Keep it going! Remember nothing good ever comes from alcohol, nothing.
Originally Posted by JanieJ
Just read this thread, what a great idea. I'm on day 18, so I'm coming with you as you go on to day 40.
Congrats on 31 days sober
Congrats on 31 days sober
So, I feel a bit off after demolishing that pizza last night ... but I'm really happy that I didn't drink. If so there's no way I'd be out of bed. Now I've had my coffee, done some stretches and am now good to go
. Day 32.
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Day 33.
Turned down an invitation to Oktoberfest. That would have been a disaster.
I'm starting to feel isolated from my housemates. We drank and went to the gym together. Now I'm not drinking, and different schedules/injuries has cut down our gym time together to nothing.
I like them and I live here rent free which gives me an amazing chance to save money, but it's definitely feeling more difficult now.
Turned down an invitation to Oktoberfest. That would have been a disaster.
I'm starting to feel isolated from my housemates. We drank and went to the gym together. Now I'm not drinking, and different schedules/injuries has cut down our gym time together to nothing.
I like them and I live here rent free which gives me an amazing chance to save money, but it's definitely feeling more difficult now.
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Felt like getting in early, so here I am.
Feeling better about my decision to not go now. It was always the obvious, correct choice but in the moment it's difficult. Going to work fresh & having a successful day, then going to bed clearheaded was rewarding.
Day 34.
Feeling better about my decision to not go now. It was always the obvious, correct choice but in the moment it's difficult. Going to work fresh & having a successful day, then going to bed clearheaded was rewarding.
Day 34.
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In early again. Oof, my body's aching from the gym. Def need a day off today. I'm feeling a little scattered, I can't lie comfortably as I've done something to my tailbone. Craving relief ... just need to get through the day. Day 35.
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Day 36.
Little things are starting to remind me of why I drink. Small failures. I don't know what's happened, but I feel scattered. Sloppy. Slightly disconnected from myself. Anxious. Problem solving is down - For example I'll see some numbers that I can normally calculate in a flash, but the intuition that's normally there just isn't working for me. Hopefully this is just a phase.
Little things are starting to remind me of why I drink. Small failures. I don't know what's happened, but I feel scattered. Sloppy. Slightly disconnected from myself. Anxious. Problem solving is down - For example I'll see some numbers that I can normally calculate in a flash, but the intuition that's normally there just isn't working for me. Hopefully this is just a phase.
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Reading about PAWS made me feel a little better.
I don't know if I drank enough to experience PAWS properly, but it definitely describes how I feel at the moment anyway.
... Inability to solve problems
Inability to solve problems leads to lowered self-esteem. We feel embarrassed, incompetent, and “not okay.” Diminished self-esteem and fear of failure lead to living and working problems. These all add to our stress, and the stress further exaggerates the other problems. Six things contribute to this: trouble thinking clearly, emotional overreaction, memory problems, sleep disturbances, physical coordination problems and difficulty managing stress.
Inability to think clearly
Our brain seems to work properly only part of the time. Sometimes our head just feels fuzzy because of the changes that occurred in our brains while we were using. The changes take time to improve. It is also due to the simple fact that we are trying to process a lot more information than we did before. While using, we mainly thought about getting more, using, and turning off our brains. Now we are considering the myriad things necessary to truly live our lives. To begin with, it can be a bit much ...
Inability to solve problems leads to lowered self-esteem. We feel embarrassed, incompetent, and “not okay.” Diminished self-esteem and fear of failure lead to living and working problems. These all add to our stress, and the stress further exaggerates the other problems. Six things contribute to this: trouble thinking clearly, emotional overreaction, memory problems, sleep disturbances, physical coordination problems and difficulty managing stress.
Inability to think clearly
Our brain seems to work properly only part of the time. Sometimes our head just feels fuzzy because of the changes that occurred in our brains while we were using. The changes take time to improve. It is also due to the simple fact that we are trying to process a lot more information than we did before. While using, we mainly thought about getting more, using, and turning off our brains. Now we are considering the myriad things necessary to truly live our lives. To begin with, it can be a bit much ...
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Day 37.
Feeling better this morning. Dee commented a few weeks ago that early in recovery he felt like a different person each day. This is certainly the case with me. A bit all over the place, but thankfully nothing too serious thus far. Onward to day 38, one day @ a time.
Feeling better this morning. Dee commented a few weeks ago that early in recovery he felt like a different person each day. This is certainly the case with me. A bit all over the place, but thankfully nothing too serious thus far. Onward to day 38, one day @ a time.
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