xJustBreathex

but I messed up. Really bad. Was hospitalized and am just now allowed an overnight pass at home. I feel horrible. Angry... guilty... ashamed. Im trying to move on and learn from it so I don't make the same mistakes again. My new sobriety date is Sept 21,2014. 7 Days today god willing...

longbeachone

Been there. The sheer number of times I screwed up could fill an ocean, especially if you toss in the guilt and shame that accompanied my exploits. All I can say to you is try not to wallow in the misery too much...spilt milk and water under the bridge. Look ahead and commit to not making the same mistakes again.

I finally got sober, as have many on the site, and you will too. It takes as long as it takes. Welcome back.

xJustBreathex

Thank you so much. Im doing my best not to wallow. Just pick up and move on from here. I love this site so much. The support is amazing

Soberwolf

Do not wallow accept it for what it is

you never have to walk down that road of misery again congrats on 7 days keep it up

wishing you the best of luck

Raider

I understand completely.

Anna

The main thing is to learn and then to move on. Be kind to yourself, and know for sure that you can do this.

MavisTheFairy13

We've all messed up, you've done 7 days though which is fantastic! Keep going, one day at a time

least

Forgive yourself, learn from it, and move forward again.

aasharon90

When the police showed up to my little
families house after a call was made for
an intervention, I was escorted to the police
vehicle and placed in the back seat feeling
angry that my family turned me in or over
to the authorities.

During the whole ride, I had no idea really
where I was going. I just went thinking I
was going to a place to be evaluated by
a doctor who would understand why I wanted
to end my life. Why I took those hand full
of pain pills after another argument with
my husband because I came in late again
from a club after listening to music.

For me, I never leave home without being
made up. Dressed nicely, every hair in place
and make up on. This time I left home looking
as homely as I could and didn't even care.

I thought I was going for a quick trip to
the doctor and would be back home soon.
Eventually I learned I would be staying the
night and had to have some clothes packed
and sent over to me.

The next day was more evaluations in which
I passed them all except to learn I had a
drinking problem or in other words an Addiction
to alcohol.

So it was recommended that I remain in
rehab for 2 weeks in which I had no choice
and so accepted it. BUT, was soooo worried
about my little family. Who would take care
of them since I was the at home mom and
wife.

Well, it was out of my hands and since
my family intervened on me getting me
help I needed then they would have to
take care of the home while I was away.

And believe me, I certainly didn't want
anyone to take care of my little family
or be in my home but me. But at that
point I was not in any condition to take
care of anyone, much less myself.

So, I stayed in rehab for 2 weeks at first
learning about my addiction and healthy
ways to live life without drinking with a
program of recovery consisting of steps
and principles to incorporate in my everyday
life.

At the end of 2 weeks when I was suppose
to be sent home, I was told if I did go home
I would surely drink again because I wasn't
ready. There were many issues I needed
to work thru in order for me to move forward.
At that point they wanted to send me to a
halfway house miles away for 6 weeks or 3
months. Further away and longer away from
my little family.

I begged and pleaded that they let me stay
where I was and would do what I needed
to do to not be sent away. They agreed and
I remain for 28 days.

That was back in August 1990 where I
began my recovery journey and still on
it today. I realized from that moment on
that it is my responsibility to do whatever
I need to do to remain sober, healthy, happy
and honest a day at a time.

You can too.

razor15

Great inspiration!