Thatdeliveryguy

Ok, today will be my last real day I can post freely, starting tomorrow I am going to kick the recovery and abstinence into high gear.

My unemployment has been denied as of yesterday, I have a strong case, and will eventually qualify but that is many weeks away.

Looks like I am off to weekly rental land ( scum bag hotel motels), so hopefully I can find enough day labor to support a weekly rental. If I am very lucky they will have free wifi, otherwise, I am going to have to go silent on here for some time.

My hope of hopes is to find a job soon, find a suitable or at least a roof over my head, get my counseling, get my medication, and most of all be proactive in getting help.

By Monday, I will be on a waiting list for inpatient rehab. In any case its time to get help, and with that I won't have so much online time.

So for now my friends, wish me well, I am going to go off and get better and come back stronger than ever. So many follow me here, so know that I am off to get help, but at this time I won't be posting after today more than once a week from a library if I get a weekly rental with wifi maybe more.

Thank you all for your advice and well wishes. I am so glad so many of you have been in my corner through my recovery process. You guys kick azz, and I will see you on the back side. You might see occasional post but I wanted everyone to know how much you mean to me. This has been a most awesome experience for me posting here, and now I am going to be thrown into a chaotic life, but will come out a better man.

So one last time, today I will respond to this thread, but wish me well, I won't be posting regularly anymore. I hope I offered a tiny bit of help to some of you or nothing else my honesty you could relate too. For now, after today, I say Goodbye, I am off to get the help I need and strengthen myself. Love you all again, Jeremy

Jupiters

good luck Jeremy. You will be in my thoughts and wishing you all the best! You can do this. And SR will be here, waiting with open hearts.
Take good care.

sugarbear1

if ya went to a rehab, you may be eligible for housing when they let you out.....

I wish you and your family well during this time

love and hugs to you all

LBrain

best wishes J. stay strong and pull yourself through this.

biminiblue

Keep pushing forward, J.

We are behind you always.

DearPrudence

Good luck, J! Sending good vibes your way.

Soberpotamus

Love & Hugs, Jeremy! Take care. You can do this!

Lola23

Good luck.

Gilmer

God bless you, Jeremy!

MariahGayle

Will be thinking of you Jeremy & wishing you all that is good!

Elodie

Good luck Jeremy!

Soberwolf

Things wont be the same round round here without you....i know il miss you

il hope n pray it all works out every day J

No matter what please stay in touch

your friend soberwolf

Luper

Best wishes Jeremy to you and your family!

Stay strong!

Aellyce

There is certainly a lot on your plate, Jeremy... and judging by your posts, each of these things are highly challenging on their own. Despite of the tendency to take and discuss some things in extreme ways sometimes, you clearly display very valuable traits, for example the willingness to seek and accept help and reactions from people in different forms (not just sweet and shiny), and resilience. I think these will help you greatly in the upcoming parts of your journey.

Things may be quite chaotic for you right now, but this can be an excellent platform for a new beginning. Please continue to use all the available resources and you may find yourself in a much better place sooner that you might think!

Take care of yourself and family, and the best of luck to you!

earlyriser

I hope someday in the not too distant future to see a post where you refer to this as the beginning of your journey to peace and sobriety.

Hope4Life

Good Luck, Jeremy! It sounds like you have a good plan. Accept the help you are given and work it to the best of your ability and good things will come to you.

Take Care.

Mountainmanbob

We wish you well out there with your recovery and yet another new start on life. Looking forward to hearing from you when you can find the time and a Wi-Fi connection.

Bob

Hawks

God bless mate & take your meds every single day, please!!!!

VikingGF

Good luck to you. I will look forward to seeing your posts- take good care.

Thatdeliveryguy

I thank you all kindly. You well wishes mean the world to me.

I started this journey in January, I knew I needed to quit and had mental issues. At first I denied and didn't want to address the mental issues. I thought I could moderate or just talk to people and everything was going to be fine.

I grew over many months to realize, my mental issues weren't going to go away, I also knew that I wasn't capable of moderation. I also learned I knew I need to really be real and get support and get help. However, I didn't trust that help, I questioned those that came before me, I ignored their advice.

I am humbling myself and now am growing to learn I don't know anything. I need to listen to those that came before me, listen to the professional and stop being obstinate and participate and be active in my recovery.