BeABetterMan

Pretty much a hopeless alcoholic. Trail of destruction in my wake. So much more life to live and I know it can improve, but I've failed SO MANY TIMES before. Starting an IOP tomorrow. I pray that I get some clarity and some separation from this plague. I've lost almost everything but I know it can get better.

I've gone 6 months two times before with the help from treatment and some AA. Gonna try treatment again.

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum!!

I went round and round in circles for a long time, so I know how it feels, but the important thing is not to give up, try something different, tweak your plan, you'll get there, good luck for tomorrow!!

You can do this!!

Soberwolf

Welcome to sober recovery

Hevyn

Hi BetterMan.

We know you can do it too. I was an all day, every day drinker when I found SR. Knowing I wasn't alone made a huge difference. Everyone understood - no judging. Finding this kind of support and friendship makes it so much easier to be strong. You're going to do it - no more loss, just rebuilding - and freedom.

FreeOwl

welcome to SR..... you're still here, still trying, still working at it....

and that means you still want to change your life for the better.

and that means - you can, and you WILL!!

We're here to help.

luvmygirls

You can do this!!! You're not hopeless. You've come to the right place for support. :-)

gratitude28

Big prayers and hoping this time is the charm! Life is good on this side - I hope you get to experience it! Big hugs.
Beth

kirstensmith

The fact that you are here and starting treatment again tomorrow tells me you are far from hopeless! One day at a time.

BBQBOY

Just try to remember how good you felt during your sober stints. Compare those feeling with the feeling you are having now. I'm pretty sure the sober time wins out. At least that is the way I remind myself when the AV pops up and says it is OK to just have one little drink. And I know that will never end up well. Welcome to the group, sounds like you have good plan...stick with what works!

BeABetterMan

Lots has happened.

Started my IOP, hit a couple of meetings, picked up a good sponsor.

Life is kind of ****** right now with moving, selling a house, divorce, kids, etc, etc, etc. Ex-wife is putting up boundaries she said she wouldn't, but I'm not innocent.

I imagine this is going to be a pretty tough stretch. I need to be humble and receptive. I'm way more into AA than I was my last couple times, maybe because of the groups at the two meetings. Who knows??

Anyway, still sober, feeling better physically but mentally still pretty messy.

Talk to ya'll soon.

BeABetterMan

I'm on day 16 and I'm feeling great. I'm eating too much and too many sweets, but I'll allow myself those indulgences early in my recovery. I'm working my IOP, talking with my sponsor daily and hitting a couple meetings a week. Life is getting better. I know this is the honeymoon period though, so I plan on being dilligent this time. Good luck to all of the sufferers.

Hobbers

If you are here, I am 98% certain that you are NOT hopeless, my friend. Hopeless would be consigning oneself to the curb/gutter of history and dying next to a bottle.

You are here. You are at least on SOME level trying, and likely trying quite hard. That is NOT hopeless in my book, my friend.

(hug)

Cecilia44

Agree with Hobbers. You're not hopeless.

BeABetterMan

Day 21. 3 meetings/week, I've recorded some of the best AA speaker mp3s onto some discs and I listen to them on the way to work, also working my IOP. Getting more comfortable being sober. I will not let my guard down. Meetings are my key. I've also been reading the big book, slowly instead of racing like I have done before.

I'm getting fat. I now am addicted to chocolate. Eff it, one addiction at a time !

Dee74

Congrats on 3 weeks

D

afloatsober

Took me a long time to get to work, just as you are getting to work now.
For me AA and everything else changed when i was desperate enough to just do it and quit thinking it.
I think that you are doing great.
Keep at it.
G

Findingtheway

Thanks for sharing your story. I've had a few failed stops and starts myself.

I haven't given up. Sounds like you haven't either.

ccam1973

Great job on 21 days! i'm right there with you on hitting the chocolate way too much now that I'm not drinking.

Keep going strong!

biminiblue

I think a lot of us replace that sugar in alcohol for other sugar.

In my case at about six weeks, the sugar cravings diminished quite a bit. As long as I don't binge on it, I don't really crave it too badly.

Great job on the 21 days, man. Make it stick. It's up to you. You sound strong.

BeABetterMan

30 days. Feeling pretty good. Getting fat, too many sweets. But I have more energy, more money, more memory, more serenity, more time with my children, more hope.

I know it's the honeymoon periood, but I'm going to bask in it anyway. Then back to work (IOP, Big Book, Meetings, etc.).