versa1977

Hello everyone. I hate myself (again) at this moment. I have lost control of my drinking. I thought I was just a social drinker, but lately I am a SOLO drinker. I don't drink everyday, once or twice a week. But when I do , I do it excessively...I am drunk explaining homework to my child - last nite I drove with my daughter in the car and I was drunk..I hate it I say I will stop but it happens again...I don't want this for myself and definitely not for my daughter

Meraviglioso

Me neither! You are in the right place, SR is full of people just like you who understand. I also am a mother, I have 2 boys and they are my biggest motivation. I have done it all, bath time drunk, skipping pages of books at bedtime so I could get back to drinking, driving drunk, passing out night and day. Blah. I'm over it.
I am fighting a cycle of relapses right now but I am here for the same reason as you, to quit for good.
You don't have to live like this and you sound like a great mom that you want to quit for your daughter too. You can do this. She is worth it, YOU are worth it. Stick around and read, I think it will give you some motivation.
Best of luck to you.

Ornithology

Hi Versa1977 and welcome to SR. It sounds like you have a few reasons to stop drinking. And not driving drunk with your daughter in the car is a good one; I had that reason too.
I think you will find lots of support here.

versa1977

Thank you ! I really do want to do this and I need all the support I can get.

Mountainmanbob

welcome

you need help my friend

I (we) understand the actions of a drunk -- not pretty

please - seek help here on site and everywhere else that you may find it

don't be afraid to try AA meetings -- many have gotten sober there

Mountainman

KateL

Hi Versa. You have made a wonderful start coming here xxx

luvmygirls

I have done those same things many times. Only recently have I understood what "unmanageable" means...I am seriously phoning it in as a parent and only doing what needs to be done, not the things that should be done. Feel free to send me a PM. I don't have any advice, but we can commiserate at least. Take care.

EJ43

Hi versa! Mom here too!!!! Been there done that! I also thought it was ok to pick kids up from practice with a glass of wine in the car too! Ayiyi! You can do it, many here who understand.

Soberwolf

Hello welcome

PurpleKnight

Welcome to the Forum Versa!! You'll find loads of support here on SR!!

littlefish

I was a drinking mom too. I did all the typical things for the woman who drinks at home. I think we are actually in more danger than people who drink outside of the home. I thought I was saving money by buying a whole bottle of wine for the price of a single glass in the bar.
I avoided driving after 5 in the evening because I was always plastered, but that meant it was a green light to drink even more for the rest of the night.

Drove the kids to school in the morning with killer hangovers, I didn't know then but I know now that my blood alcohol was not lower than the night before and despite having a few hours sleep, I was over the legal limit at 7 in the morning.

Sometimes we think that we have to take care of our domestic tasks and for that reason we can't attend evening meetings. But I finally realized that my family was not benefiting from my presence at home as long as I was drinking.
There's lots that a person can do to get sober, I would highly recommend a program!

Dee74

Hi and welcome Versa

I didn't want that life anymore either - or the person I'd become.
SR was instrumental in helping me turn things around.

There's a lot of support understanding and wisdom here.

Glad you found us

D

Jupiters

welcome versa
I hope you decide to stick around here.
Take it from someone with 2 DUI's - you don't want that on your conscious - especially with kids involved. I'm still dealing with my remorse and guilt from mine. I could have seriously injured or killed someone out there.
You have a chance now to change this all, for you AND your family

flossyfressia

Welcome versa 😃

You're in a safe forum here-no judging, just lots of support and understanding.

versa1977

Thank you so much, yes I have woken up to take my daughter to school from a night of drinking. It's just so sadly amazing how fast alcohol can get out of hand.

Hevyn

I was like that too Versa. I had it in my system most of the time - was always numb and foggy. It was never fun any more - just a bad habit that only brought me misery. You can kick it out of your life and get free.

Alynn

Your in a good place. No judging! I'm a mother also. Tried to hide from daughter and husband. I got to a place where I just said the same thing. I do not know how I got so entangled with alchohol. It happened so fast. To many shameful nights.. It was only progressing and I knew it couldn't continue. SR has been so very very helpful... Check in everyday to hold your self accountable. You can turn this around and give it up also hugs

least

Welcome to the family. You've found a great place to come for support.

razor15

I'm a Dad with a daughter and son, and I have not been the father I can...and will be. I have learned that guilt is bs, however, and positive action is what defines me. This is a great place, and welcome. I get strength here.