Temptation sucks
 

No good deed goes unpunished I suppose. I get a call from a friend today at 1pm, slurred speech saying he is at the Atlantis ( less than a mile away) and very drunk. Can I meet him there, he needs me to drive him home. I think to myself no good can come of this, but I know he has a history at that casino of being kicked out and getting in trouble. However, they always let him come back, he spends a ton there.

Anyways, I tell myself I can't go in the casino, no good is going to come of going into the casino. I tell him where is your car, he say's I think ,"its in the back lot". I tell him, " ok meet me in the back lot", " I will drive you home and then you can get your car tomorrow at my house". So I tell him meet me there at 130 pm. I head off on foot its only a half block away, get to the back lot and he is not there.

I sit there till 145 and then I think to myself something is wrong, and then I decide to go in to the casino. What a mistake that was I immediately here the machines, its nice and cool and dark, and I can smell cigarettes and cigars. I immediately get excited, my brain says this is awesome, I have money in my pocket and I keep thinking lets put 5 in and then find him.

In that moment I knew I had to find my friend fast, and I did turns out he was parked in the front lot, I found him drunk and half delirious leaning against his car. He was yelling at me for " being late" I told him you sadi the back lot this is the front lot. He said "oh I am sorry" I drove him home. The entire ride all 10 minutes I could smell the alcohol on him further temptation.

So I've driven home now, and sadly all I can think about is the casino, the cigarettes, gambling and alcohol. I am not going to go, but its weird the adrenaline rush is still with me and that's just from seeing the experience. I am glad I didn't take the job at the casino ( this was the friend that offered the job), I couldn't do this daily and stay sober. However, now I wish, I just didn't go. I am sitting here sulking over the fact that I can't do the things I used to love. Strange indeed how the brain works!

Good day friends, wanted to share my experience, still trying to stay positive tomorrow I got me a temp job helping a housing framer, ought to be fun I've never framed before.

Apparently the endorphin rush to the brain during the initial anticipation of doing something, drinking, gambling etc, is higher than when we actually do the action, so it's all a false promise!!

Great job on pushing through!! :scoregood

Ice cream time mate!

Well done resisting, now you know that Casino is a big no no. Kind of rhymes doesn't it? LOL!

I'm so proud of you for walking away-that was such a strong, positive reaction! You will get over the craving and be left with the pride in knowing you didn't succumb xxx

J my brother is a gambler in recovery and ive seen first hand how devastating gambling is

Glad you experienced that and got through it know why ?

It means you know its not the way sure you could have slipped a 5 but you didnt

maybe wasnt such a good idea to go inside...next time check the front perhaps aswell

TDG, glad you got out of there in time.

Be glad that he is the one with the anxiety and hangover tomorrow. Imagine, framing houses with a severe hangover and regret that you drank. No, you are better than that. Enjoy that you were able to get out of there and not to succumb to the bottle. You are strong and that speaks volumes. You can do it.

Whew...you made it! I call that skating on thin ice.

Be PROUD!
 

TDG.... you have just proven to yourself that you have control over your actions. GOOD JOB! You helped a friend and learned a very important lesson.

Take strength from this experience and go forward.

Glad to hear you found some work, Congratulations!

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I think it is great that you overcame this situation THIS time. I would caution you to not put yourself in tempting situations too often. It is totally ok to be selfish in your recovery. Do not put anything ahead of your recovery. I had to learn how to say "no". I'm not great about it all of the time, but I"m working on it.

Good job, I also went into a bar last night for a work related meeting and stuck to my ginger ale. I was the only one not drinking! Still had a fun time though.