MarathonMan

I was on here a few months ago full of enthusiasm for not drinking...I got to 108 days, but in the end decided to have a couple of harmless drinks with a meal back at the end of May. It was a a pretty quick spiral downwards for me this time, much quicker than ever before, it was like I lost that little voice in my head that told me to back off a bit, I was back to drinking every day within about a week. I've had a pretty dark few months.

My wife is currently 6 months pregnant and I was reading articles about being a good dad and they all said basically the same thing. Be the man you want your kid to be. The thought of my son becoming the man I am currently makes me really sad. So I decided to re-commit to sobriety. I'm 7 days sober today. I mustered up the courage to go to AA and have done 2 meetings now although I've not really taken part at all, just listened.

Just wanted to say hello and ask you all to prey for me, me and my wife wanted a child for a long time and we're finally going to get it and I'm worried I'm going to mess up if I don't get my head on straight.

ImperfectlyMe

Welcome back marathon man glad to see you again!

Congrats on your son to be! It warms my heart to hear you're reading up on becoming a father, you're already a step ahead!

Well done on your first week. Prayers to the 3 of you .

Altoids

Hi MM ~ glad you are back on the path with us and good job on 1 week. Congrats on becoming a parent. Your heart is gonna explode with LOVE like you've never felt before for this little guy.

Cecilia44

Welcome MarathonMan. Seven days sober? Wow, that's great. I am only on Day Two.

If you're an alcoholic like the rest of us, one drink is too many. One just starts the cycle over again, as you found out.

Great that you are going to meetings too. I have yet to muster up the courage. You can do this, you know you can. One day at a time. So happy you are here with us.

Congrats on the new baby coming too! How awesome!

Nonsensical

Perfect.

Welcome back to the fight of your life.

PurpleKnight

Welcome back!! You can do this!!

JasonNorth

Welcome marathon man.

That's scary. I'm still of the opinion i could try that (successfully). Perhaps i have a lot to learn.

Congratulations on the baby & well done for making the right choices in good time for his arrival.

FreeOwl

Welcome back Marathon Man.

Hit the trails a lot too.... running can be a huge help. Just don't use it as an "I've earned a few beers" excuse. I've done that a lot.

I'm a father of two. I wish I'd been sober the whole time. I bet I would have been an even better Daddy then. I'm proud of the Daddy I have been, even moreso now that I've chosen and honored sobriety.

You can do this and the gift it will be is not simply to your kids - it is to you. I promise you that every moment will be deeper, more meaningful, more intense and more rich and joyful when you are awake, aware, present and sober.

you're doing the right thing and we're here to help.

Climber122

Good on you, Marathon man. Deciding to go to AA is a different course than before right? Different paths often achieve different results.

Apply that long distance mentality to recovery - this is not a sprint to be sure Congrats on your child that's on the way - this is a fantastic time for you to get sober!

Soberpotamus

Welcome back Congrats on 7 days, and well done for changing up your plan and doing something for your sobriety.

jdooner

Welcome back - good to see you have more resolve. Setting new bottoms, either actively or emotionally in sobriety is helpful in this process I have found.

MarathonMan

Feel like such a let down after last time.....i'm just so tired of fighting myself, my head screams its the wrong choice when I drink and does the same when I don't.....going to take it slower this time, one day at a time. Last time I spent too much time looking at the hurdles in the distance and then fell over the one right in front of me.

I'm not sure if AA will suit me, haven't felt to comfortable yet but nothing changes if nothing changes....going it alone failed last time so time to try something new.

Thanks for all the support everyone and this time I'll hang around for a while longer.

FreeOwl

it's not actually supposed to feel comfortable, Marathonman....



c'mon, let's do this!!

roguedreams

Hey, I remember you! Welcome back!

I too, don't know if AA is for me; I've been going recently, just as something to do - I don't participate just yet, I just listen. If anything, it doesn't HURT sobriety, it's something to do around sober people, etc.

I too, fell on my face in June, after a couple months' sobriety, because I was too consumed with counting days and looking at hurdles ahead and biting off more than I can chew (I quit smoking, took up extreme workouts, etc) ... I'm back, humbled and dusty and maybe just a tad bit more wise. Mistakes can be so productive, lol.

least

Welcome back! And congrats on the upcoming birth. Being sober means you'll be the best possible dad. It's the best gift you can give your child - a sober parent.