First real drinking dream
 

I've had other dreams before that I drank...but it was more like something else was going on in my dream and I happened to drink as well. This was different...it was really a dream that I totally relapsed and had a bottle of wine.
Ugh, ugh ugh. In the dream, something was going on with work that I guess stressed me out so I decided to have a glass of wine. And before I knew it, the entire bottle was gone. But the weird part is that part of the dream was that I woke up and hoped it was just a dream. I didn't remember finishing the bottle, maybe I just had a glass, which wouldn't be that bad. So I get out of bed and into the kitchen to see the damage which I've done in real life SO SO SO many times...can't remember what all I drank and have to check on it the next day. I see the totally empty bottle and am so disappointed in myself.

When I woke up, it took a while to remind myself it was just a dream...and I thought about what I really did the night before (had a glass of tea, a little too much dessert, and went to bed at 10pm). I'm so relieved. Day 36 today. I haven't really been counting every day, but its nice to remind myself from time to time..

Drinking dreams can be quite a ride, and the sense of panic and then relief can be intense!! :)

Great job on Day 36!! :)

I count EVERYDAY!!!! Today is 183 :)

Day 36 is fantastic

Oh man, I had a terrible one on the weekend. So scary!!

The one thing that I found kind of cool about it (and your situation too) was that I immediately felt guilt/remorse about drinking, even in my dream! I wasn't like "ohhh yes finally a drink!" I realized I had drank and I felt awful about it.

So even my subconcious doesn't want me to drink.

I think that means something :)

I had one a few nights ago. I woke up saying M%&*#$ F#$%&^ because it felt so real. I actually woke my wife up when I yelled that as I woke up. I had to laugh a little because I got so worked up over it...

I have acceptance in knowing i cant drink safely or responsibly

i know what will happen if i drink and im not doing that to myself no more

its acceptance for me