Scared to post
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Scared to post
in case you tell me probably correctly to get lost but I need you guys
After a roller coaster 2 months of 4 days off 3 days on hospitalised / Librium I picked up again .............
Am now on day 4 and last Tuesday I hit my personal low which has left everyone (husband / family ) stunned.............I drank aftershave
Yes you read correct
One mouthful and 5 mins later came straight back up
what followed can only be described as HELL black vomit for 2 days hiccups for 3 and a sense of shame that I actually almost killed myself for a fix
I have spoken to my GP am seeing my alcohol counsellor weds and have reconnected with AA
Heaven knows what my insides look like
Sorry .............but getting back on track
Had to get it off my chest
Mike
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After a roller coaster 2 months of 4 days off 3 days on hospitalised / Librium I picked up again .............
Am now on day 4 and last Tuesday I hit my personal low which has left everyone (husband / family ) stunned.............I drank aftershave
Yes you read correct
One mouthful and 5 mins later came straight back up
what followed can only be described as HELL black vomit for 2 days hiccups for 3 and a sense of shame that I actually almost killed myself for a fix
I have spoken to my GP am seeing my alcohol counsellor weds and have reconnected with AA
Heaven knows what my insides look like
Sorry .............but getting back on track
Had to get it off my chest
Mike
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Hi mike
I was the same except with blood i too was killing myself
you have seen whats happened it will only get worse
my best advice is stay here on the forum through your first month and involve yourself in discussion
i stress this more than anything else give sobriety a true chance dont give up find an iron will and say no to drink and yes to sobriety
i am 14 months sober today and i live so diffrently to how i did then i thought my life would never change
and then i changed it and my life changed
good luck and really nice to meet you
I was the same except with blood i too was killing myself
you have seen whats happened it will only get worse
my best advice is stay here on the forum through your first month and involve yourself in discussion
i stress this more than anything else give sobriety a true chance dont give up find an iron will and say no to drink and yes to sobriety
i am 14 months sober today and i live so diffrently to how i did then i thought my life would never change
and then i changed it and my life changed
good luck and really nice to meet you
Mike, you never need to be scared to post here. We know how hard this is and how this disease robs us of dignity, among other things.
It sounds like you have a good plan, so keep reading and posting.
It sounds like you have a good plan, so keep reading and posting.
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Join Date: Feb 2014
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thanks all
Can eat now and just about look at people
Never in a million years ............
AND by the way this is my LAST day 4
Was so afraid of your reactions to my discgraceful behaviour
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Can eat now and just about look at people
Never in a million years ............
AND by the way this is my LAST day 4
Was so afraid of your reactions to my discgraceful behaviour
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None of us have any reason or right to judge.
You've found your bottom. Now it's time to start clawing your way to the top.
We're here for you - fighting right alongside you every step of the way.
You've found your bottom. Now it's time to start clawing your way to the top.
We're here for you - fighting right alongside you every step of the way.
Welcome back.
If I went into some of my disgusting behavior while drunk I could probably still be arrested.
I'm glad you're back. And I'm glad you posted. What you did wasn't disgusting, it was desperation. I drank cooking sherry once, not to forget the vanilla extract.
You're not disgusting at all.
Congratulations on day four and remember you never have to go back to that dark place. There is light here.
If I went into some of my disgusting behavior while drunk I could probably still be arrested.
I'm glad you're back. And I'm glad you posted. What you did wasn't disgusting, it was desperation. I drank cooking sherry once, not to forget the vanilla extract.
You're not disgusting at all.
Congratulations on day four and remember you never have to go back to that dark place. There is light here.
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thanks all - you have made feel much less ashamed and alone
Scared of the reaction of our Dee!!!!!
Getting myself back to work Tuesday .........lucky have my own business or would have been fired by now
You are a fantastic bunch of kind dear people and I am proud to be a part of SR
Mike
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Scared of the reaction of our Dee!!!!!
Getting myself back to work Tuesday .........lucky have my own business or would have been fired by now
You are a fantastic bunch of kind dear people and I am proud to be a part of SR
Mike
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Your among family here! Pretty sure we've all done some pretty dumb stuff.. I know I have... It's a twisted thing this addiction. Welcome back ! Stay connected here
I can do all things through he who strengthens me
I can do all things through he who strengthens me
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