soberlife123

Back to square one....so depressing.

Inchworm

But, you are back and that is so not depressing!

soberlife123

I just really want it to work this time...

robgt350

no i would now see it is depressing, you are doing it again. you did it before you can do it again.i relapsed also, and i got back on square one also.

aasharon90

Im glad you return too. Many are
not so lucky to return which is sad.

You have acquired some good useful
tools to help you remain sober. Now
you can add to it and become willing
to do whatever you need to do, to go
to any lengths to remain sober and
protect your sobriety foundation you
are building to live your life upon for
yrs. to come.

Inchworm

I don't have a lot of days under my belt, but, I have listened to others say that after a relapse I needed to change up my plan. Nothing changes if nothing changes. I post on SR, I'm reading the Big Book and other mindfulness and addiction books, I'm meditating, doing a wee bit of yoga in the morning and hiking whenever I can. All the best to you! Change up your plan!

Soberwolf

glad youn made it bk

dont be down/beat yourself up

what can you do diffrent this time

spk soon gd luck

Anna

Welcome back, Lawgirl. What can you do differently this time to help you?

Fly N Buy

35 + years of one constant relapse! Your a rookie! The honesty to start over and keep truckin - those are the qualities of a winner.......figure what went wrong, and fix it. You can do it!!

Love this song when I need to pick myself up.....
Peter Tosh - Pick Myself Up - YouTube

peace

soberlife123

I just feel at 32 if I don't turn this around now I never will

soberlife123

Not pick up that first drink! If I didn't feel so awfully hungover I would go to a meeting but i'm throwing up eugh

Hevyn

Lawgirl - I had to have that happen a few times before I finally 'got it'. I was much older - so you're far wiser than I was. It's good that you see what'll happen down the road if it continues - but you're not going to let that happen.

Proud of you for coming back.

jessie65

Sorry you relapsed, I know it's an awful feeling. How long were you sober?

Start again, and remember how you feel right now. 32 is still so young, you have your whole life ahead of you.

Hope you feel better soon.

soberlife123

I'm just so disappointed in myself.

EJ43

Hi law girl!!!! Hang in there girl! Use everything you are feeling as fuel to move forward. Feel it all! The sickness, disappointment, guilt....then use it.

Mags1

Hi Lawgirl, remember how you feel because when the hangover goes the av creeps in and you will be feeling good away from the hangover. Just saying, have a plan.

All the best.

soberlife123

Eugh I never want to feel like this again....why do we do this to ourselves

HeartsAfire

Because we're alcoholics. The great news is that we don't have to do it. WE hold the ultimate power over this!! You can do this but it takes hard work & unwavering strength. We're right here with you - fighting every step of the way. It gets better & easier. Trust that for now.

ScottFromWI

It will work if you take the necessary actions to make it work. Look back and see if you were doing everything you could have leading up to this episode of drinking.

You had mentioned a while back that you found an AA home group you liked, were you still involved prior to drinking this last time? You also seemed to have disappeared from SR for a stretch....if you plan to use it you must do it regularly.

It's hard work....harder than any of us estimate at first. But it IS possible.

dwtbd

Yourself is the one who came here and posted, don't be disappointed in that.
Your addiction wants you to be disappointed in the 'total' you , don't give it that power.
Mine used to use that emotion to convince me I wasn't worth the work and trying of breaking free from its hold. You can, don't listen to that 'thinking'. Be disappointed that it lead you back to it, but you can get free, know you can, rooting for you