Alynn

Day 10 and feel like I'm being tested... I honestly know drinking doesn't help solve anything and it's not an option. Just feel like every button has been pushed today. I need an outlet for this.... I have a good husband he is just not supportive in this and I get NO time for myself.... I actually scouted out the AA place for my first meeting but now can't go. I'm a mom so going out for a run isn't an option. Little to no help with the 4 year old on my days off. It's just little things and I really shouldn't complain... My poor neighbors I might have had a moment when I stepped outside and screamed S**T at the top of my lungs lol funny now but I was ready to blow a gasket at the time. AV trying to be sneaky today saying "your not really giving this up forever"

Sorry for the rant.... I feel like a sober ball of tension!

PurpleKnight

The first few weeks can be rough, there were many moments I went outside for fresh air, just to clear my head, AV didn't like me doing that, he'd prefer me to sit inside, alone with my thoughts, grind me down with my mind starved of oxygen!!

Hang in there!! It all gets better with time!!

Alynn

Thanks! I really hope I will get stonger... Tomorrow will be a test also... I will be working on an airplane, taking drinks to a bunch of people that get to spend the week laying on the beach in Mexico sipping cocktails... I'll turn around come back to U.S. I don't like working those vacation flights... Puts me in a bad mood. Is what it is...

Soberwolf

completly relate hang in there