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Well, l am new here,
I have decided to take a long break from drinking as I feel my health and my ability to control my drinking is suffering. I am in a wonderful relationship and alcohol has caused problems. My health has been a concern to me for the past three years. During the week, I exercise and eat well, but on the weekends I drink non-stop. Sometimes i go on binges that last longer than just the weekend. I have been drinking like this for nine years. I get a mild discomfort around my liver after my binges that lasts for several days. I went to the doctor last year because of this and they said my liver was not inflamed and my bloodwork came back fine. I took that as an excuse to continue my reckless lifestyle. I am almost 28 and I worry I have perminant liver damage. The amount of shame and guilt i feel weighs heavy on my shoulders.

Hi and Welcome,

I'm glad you posted.

Shame and guilt and two things that keep us addicted. It's such a downward spiral because it leads back to drinking. I'm glad you're taking action and stopping drinking. Hopefully you will feel the positive effects of recovery and stop drinking for good. :)

Keep checking in, Music. I am happy you found this forum and wish you peace and clarity.

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welcome music... your in the right place! We are all in this together... In the 8 days Ive been on here I have found so much hope for kicking this for good. Check in often, read, and post.

Hello and welcome

Welcome!

Pleased to meet you music. :) You're among friends who understand how you feel.

When I was 28 I felt the same way - but I didn't take action. I just kept trying to manage my drinking so it would be 'fun' again. I went on for many more years - afraid to let go of it. All it did was cause misery & anxiety in the end. You don't need it in your life.

Welcome. Glad youve made this decision. Youre young. You health will bounce back.

Welcome to SR Music1987.

Read around and post as much as you like - who knows, you may find yourself convinced, like I was, to go permanently off the sauce :)

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Welcome! You have made a wise decision to stop drinking. I had blood tests done when i was 24 because i was concerned about my health. My blood tests came back all clear, so i carried on drinking. Less than two years later i went for repeat blood tests and it was a very different story (extremely elevated liver enzymes, etc). My health and life has transformed since i stopped drinking and i no longer have constant anxiety about the harm I'm doing to myself. You'll find lots of great support and advice here. Glad you've joined us. :)

Hey Music,

At 28 I also felt the mild discomfort around my liver area. I wasn't ready to stop though so I kept drinking for four more years. When I finally had blood work done, the numbers were not good at all. It is possible to do some pretty serious damage even at a relatively young age. I hope you can stop now.

Welcome to the forum. I'm also an 87' baby : )
The shame and guilt, the binging, the health concerns, going thru all of that as well. I hope the forum helps you out, come here often it's a great source of support!

Welcome to the Forum!! Great to have you onboard!! :wave:

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Welcome to SR

Welcome, and I agree. A very wise decision.

You will find tons of support here!

Hello all,

Thanks for the wonderful support. I just want to fill you guys in. Today is Tuesday, so like clockwork my right side feels normal again, I look a lot better, my energy is up, and I feel great. I got my standard excitement at the thought of getting intoxicated this coming Fri-Sun, but I snapped out of it. Shaking away the excitement was depressing, but that depression was accompanied by a very freeing feeling. This will be my first sober weekend in almost a decade. I am concerned about this weekend as I will be alone, which ALWAYS exacerbates my desire to drink and drink and drink. I know I can do it though.

you can do it hang in there music