I did the unthinkable.
Zana girl!!!! I am SO proud of you!!! I hope YOU are proud of you as well. That was a huge step you did there. I will give you a virtual hug
I hope everything is else is starting to look a little less bleak xo
I hope everything is else is starting to look a little less bleak xo
Let Go, Let God
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Join Date: Mar 2013
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Thank you everyone for the congrats! It was difficult to do but given the circumstances I was throwing up so much over the weekend even the thought of drinking any kind of alcohol makes me cringe. Even today when I felt good waking up (although my sleeping will take time to get back to normal) the thought of alcohol sounds revolting.
I do give myself credit and a pat on the back because I've never been able to do that before. Ever. Since the time I started drinking three years ago to today... to throw away wine or any kind of booze would be heartbreaking to me. Now, it's not so sad. I never give myself credit so it felt good to do so. Still proud of myself, and I'm glad you are all here to support and give me congrats. I hadn't realized I'd get so many thanks. I just wanted to share what happened.
I know it takes one day at a time, but if you want and need this MORE THAN EVER we have to be stronger than our addictions.
I do give myself credit and a pat on the back because I've never been able to do that before. Ever. Since the time I started drinking three years ago to today... to throw away wine or any kind of booze would be heartbreaking to me. Now, it's not so sad. I never give myself credit so it felt good to do so. Still proud of myself, and I'm glad you are all here to support and give me congrats. I hadn't realized I'd get so many thanks. I just wanted to share what happened.
I know it takes one day at a time, but if you want and need this MORE THAN EVER we have to be stronger than our addictions.
After my 24 hour stomach flu over the weekend (lovely, right?) I was feeling better today and was able to have the energy to move around and do a few things around the house.
Well, low and behold I was gathering trash together and I found an entire bottle of Merlot in my bedroom closet. Obviously through my drinking binge days I would hide my alcohol in case anyone came over the next morning and all the bottles would be out and about. I hide my alcohol even when I'm home alone. I think I hide it from myself most of the time.
I did the unthinkable. I opened the wine bottle and flushed it down the toilet. The entire bottle too. Yeah, the aroma alone was a trigger but I did it and felt good about it. I'm proud of myself.
I just wanted to share.
Well, low and behold I was gathering trash together and I found an entire bottle of Merlot in my bedroom closet. Obviously through my drinking binge days I would hide my alcohol in case anyone came over the next morning and all the bottles would be out and about. I hide my alcohol even when I'm home alone. I think I hide it from myself most of the time.
I did the unthinkable. I opened the wine bottle and flushed it down the toilet. The entire bottle too. Yeah, the aroma alone was a trigger but I did it and felt good about it. I'm proud of myself.
I just wanted to share.
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