If I can do it, so can you!
 

I have not been on this site for a really long time. When I was on the site alot, I was trying to get sober and kept failing...I was looking for the magic pill and couldn't find it anywhere. I was desperate! In January of 2013 I got a DUI, I was due. But it didn't stop me. I was on the edge, freaking out about what I was going to do and how I was going to handle it, so I drank more and more. I drank in the mornings, my family hated me. I was getting close to my bottom. One day I went to work drunk to meet my boss who had come into town to work with me. How stupid was that? As I look back I believe it was a cry for help. I just couldn't do it myself. Come to find out this woman was a recovering alcoholic who took pity on me. She told me I had to go to rehab or lose my job. I went to rehab for 21 days and felt great. Only problem, my family still had lots of anger and resentment toward me. I came home and felt unloved and ignored, so what did I do? Drink!!! For two weeks I drank again, ready to commit suicide, I was done. On April 28, 2013 I took my last drink. Why? I have no idea why I stopped. I just stopped. It was either stop or die. I guess I wasn't ready to die. It was a hard couple of months. I went to outpatient 3 times a week, I went to 3-4 AA meetings a week, I got a sponsor, I read the big book and did the steps. I am proud to tell you that I have 16 months sober. I have never been so relieved of the hiding, the shame, the resentments, the anxiety, the stress. I have learned to forgive myself, although I will never forget. I have my brain back. My relationship with my husband and my kids have never been better, I am healthy! I am back to that person I was so many years ago. If I can do it, so can you!

congratulations!!! well done.

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16 months well done I'm coming up for 14

Really well done I raise my hat

CONGRATULATIONS! Isn't sobriety great?

BE WELL

Sobriety is the greatest feeling in the world. I never thought I would be here. I also know it can end in an instant, so I do not take it for granted. I work hard. I thought after I hit a year, I would have all the answers and life would be easy. But life isn't always easy for anyone sober or not. There are always going to be hard times, but at least I now have the tools to be able to handle those ups and downs and not rely on a bottle of wine!

Great Job!

Fantastic stuff!! :You_Rock_

When I finally got sober I had the idea that EVERYTHING would be better. After awhile I realized I was getting better. There is much I need to accept that happens in life that I have no control of if I drink or not. I prefer not to today.

BE WELL

I found that even that stuff got better...

Because while I cannot control it, I have the ability to choose my response and to accept the things I cannot control with far more grace and far less stress than when I'm using "management by booze".

Well done Eclipse. And thank you for the inspirational post.

You are quite simply my inspiration

Congratulations!! :)

Well said eclipse !

Congratulations, Eclipse! That is something to be proud of. Thanks for the inspiration!

What a beautiful and inspiring post, Eclipse.

Thank you for making my day.

It's really really great to hear this Eclipse - congratulations! :)

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It's always such a joy to hear from someone who returns and shares their inspirational journey; thank you and well done!

Wow! True inspiration!

Congrats on 16 months sober. :scoregood

Oh my gosh, look at you!! I am so proud of you! I have 9+ months now too, and I'm happy you have been part of my journey over the past few years of insanity.

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