Soberpotamus

There's this saying... don't compare your insides to someone else's outsides (or something like that!). What you may not realize is that all those people who have their groove, they wake up some days and have to slog through life, and it feels like work. I say that because it happens to me too! Some days I feel quite trapped and hopeless. But then I realize, I'm simply not! It's this negative mind trap, a delusional sort of thought. And it was perpetuated for years by my own drinking.

Just some things to think about...

SolitaryThinker

That's a very interesting perspective actually I never thought about it that straight forward, but I like it like that

SolitaryThinker

Yea I've been saying "I'm caught in a loop, I'm caught in a loop" it's so weird...it really is delusional

SolitaryThinker

Thanks ALynn <3

SolitaryThinker

People are like screaming at me, not actually, well sometimes lol, but they are frustrated and like "why can't you see it!"
I'm trying with everything in me to do it...I'm trying to see to bad...and I'm not giving up....I'm aware of what's going on with me....it's just dealing with it without getting completely whacked and wasted...for my fiancé, and even more myself....I def got this...I'm not going off the deep end! I'm just really buggin...but have control at the same time...I'm walking away from all this typing feeling better then i did prior, and I'm hungry, so it's a bonus...I'm just alone in this in a sense, like everyone around me has their life together and I don't...I'll leave it at that, I can't seclude myself from my close social circle and family...so I gotta own it

Dee74

I think you have an enormous amount to offer ST.

You're kind and considerate, you're intelligent and good at conversation...and you care.

When I couldn't find a way through in my own head, I started helping others.

Paradoxically, helping others helped me.

I'd gotten so caught up in ever-spiralling thinking that I needed a safety switch.

I need to get out of my own head.

Giving time to others here was perfect for that

D

SolitaryThinker

Yea, your right d....and thanks ur making me blush lol
Thank you so so much D, you really a wonderful support...I def will push it forward as well....Thank you so much

SolitaryThinker

I agree totally!