Eight Months Down the Drain
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Location: East Coast USA
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Hopefully the only thing that went down the drain was the alcohol. 8 months is an accomplishment and you should be proud. Don't be too hard on yourself, we all struggle with this one way or the other. Next time you feel you can handle just a few drinks and your mind starts obsessing over it get on this site immediately - we will help you get through it. Oh and by the way please let me know what normal is - I haven't achieve that yet.
Recovered from Hopeless State
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: New Jersey, USA
Posts: 2,156
Not down the drain at all. It took me 7 years of relapses but now I feel great. I don't even know exactly what day I stopped drinking and I don't care. I just know I don't want to now.
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Join Date: Jul 2014
Location: Colorado
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Get right back after it. 8 months is great. Heck, i havent had that in 25 years. I hated my relapse last month. I thought i could drink normally. I did for a week. Then bam, 24/7 vodka. I felt like i fail everyone on sr. But lets keep on keepin on.
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Join Date: Jun 2013
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Thank you all so much for your replies and encouragement. I'm in tears with all the support. I need to lost more and be more active, stop lurking. I need to be more active in my recovery and I see now how I was getting too comfortable and. I have to be aware of all the signs that I was ready to pick right up where I left off drinking wise. And yes, there are a ton of different definitions of normal, I guess this morning what I was feeling was so much shame and guilt and disgust (still feeling it). People that don't have issues with alcohol don't feel that way when they wake up after a night of drinking. I need to continually remind myself of how I feel right now and how I don't ever want to feel this way again. Thank you guys so much. Finally just showered and trying to pull myself back together and rehydrate.
Velveteen Rabbit
Join Date: Sep 2013
Location: San Diego, Cali
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Originally Posted by Mangoes 
You can't change the past. You can change today, right now, and move forward.
For me, I don't like that people feel the need to start on day 1 again after "slipping". When I run a marathon and fall at mile 4, they don't make me start back at the beginning again. I pick, myself, dust myself off, lick my wounds for a moment, and keep moving forward. I still made it to mile 4. I just need to figure out how to not trip again so I can continue to move forward steadily, rather than tripping on my feet and getting injured again.
Forgive yourself. You woke up human, not a god. Mistakes happen - it's what you do with them. You have 8 months sober... Something that many people have trouble achieving. That doesn't go away because you drank. But the next 8 months or 8 years don't happen if you don't brush yourself off and keep moving forward.
For me, I don't like that people feel the need to start on day 1 again after "slipping". When I run a marathon and fall at mile 4, they don't make me start back at the beginning again. I pick, myself, dust myself off, lick my wounds for a moment, and keep moving forward. I still made it to mile 4. I just need to figure out how to not trip again so I can continue to move forward steadily, rather than tripping on my feet and getting injured again.
Forgive yourself. You woke up human, not a god. Mistakes happen - it's what you do with them. You have 8 months sober... Something that many people have trouble achieving. That doesn't go away because you drank. But the next 8 months or 8 years don't happen if you don't brush yourself off and keep moving forward.
You haven't thrown away 8 months. Sounds to me like you've learned a lot!
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Canada
Posts: 4,580
Originally Posted by Indenial618
I suffer from horrible anxiety and a,though it was getting better I thought quitting drinking would magically cure it. Now I'm back to square one.
It DID pass...but it was a rough week. In the end I realized, I just have to learn new ways to deal with difficult things. And contrary to what our addiction tells us...there isn't an easy answer waiting to be uncorked. Sometimes things just suck for awhile.
Sometimes our heads are blue skies...sometimes our heads are socked in with overcast grey for days...but the weather changes...
Get up and just get back on the horse. Lesson learned. You fell for the BS illusion..big deal. Shake it off.
Chop wood...carry water.
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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you didn't throw away 8 months. You had 8 GOOD months. You threw away a few weeks.
what you got in return for those three weeks thrown away was a lesson in how good those 8 months were.
Pick up where you left off with a greater resolve and a newly-energized plan.
Thank you for helping me stay sober today.
I'm at over 8 months and plagued by lots of fleeting romanticized ideas of being able to have a drink 'just every now and again' someday.
Your post reminded me that it's not worth it.
what you got in return for those three weeks thrown away was a lesson in how good those 8 months were.
Pick up where you left off with a greater resolve and a newly-energized plan.
Thank you for helping me stay sober today.
I'm at over 8 months and plagued by lots of fleeting romanticized ideas of being able to have a drink 'just every now and again' someday.
Your post reminded me that it's not worth it.
Recovered from Hopeless State
Join Date: Oct 2012
Location: New Jersey, USA
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If you're not going to meetings Indenial, I strongly suggest you start.
Alcoholics Anonymous : Find Local A.A.
Alcoholics Anonymous : Find Local A.A.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,366
Originally Posted by Indenial618
Thank you all so much for your replies and encouragement. I'm in tears with all the support. I need to lost more and be more active, stop lurking. I need to be more active in my recovery and I see now how I was getting too comfortable and. I have to be aware of all the signs that I was ready to pick right up where I left off drinking wise. And yes, there are a ton of different definitions of normal, I guess this morning what I was feeling was so much shame and guilt and disgust (still feeling it). People that don't have issues with alcohol don't feel that way when they wake up after a night of drinking. I need to continually remind myself of how I feel right now and how I don't ever want to feel this way again. Thank you guys so much. Finally just showered and trying to pull myself back together and rehydrate.
D
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Join Date: Jan 2014
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Originally Posted by dSober
If you're not going to meetings Indenial, I strongly suggest you start.
Alcoholics Anonymous : Find Local A.A.
Alcoholics Anonymous : Find Local A.A.
It sure did help me along the way.
Still a great support from time to time.
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