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Day 4. Strugglin but OK.

Old 08-30-2014, 04:43 PM
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Day 4. Strugglin but OK.

I went to a meeting last night and coffee with AA sponsor. Today. Two meetings back to back and lunch with some AA girls. Although I was quiet and didn't say anything. Tonight, dog park with sponsor and doing some step work.

This was the last long weekend to spend out at my lake lot and I decided to stay in the city instead. For my own safety. But I'm kinda bummed that I'm missing out.

I can't stop thinking about that one high. The new one. I've never experienced anything like it before. It terrifies me and exhilarates me at the same time. I wish I never tried it. I crossed a line that I can't cross back over. And now it's all I can think about.

If I don't get this sober thing I know it will be the death of me. And fast. The craving and "more more more" was so much more powerful than anything I've ever experienced.

Praying I can make I through this night sober. God willing.
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Old 08-31-2014, 07:34 AM
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Great job on Day 4!! Keep it going!!
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Old 08-31-2014, 07:35 AM
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Good going on day four. That was always a milestone for me. Keep it up!
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Old 08-31-2014, 03:05 PM
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It's never ever too late to make a change Mrryah. Yeah, your inner addict will be playing that 'new high' song for all it's worth...but it's really just the same old BS in new clothes...and you know where that leads.

Stay strong - and congrats on day 4

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