Thatdeliveryguy

So today I was supposed to get my blood work via phone. However, I was told Jeremy, things aren't good come in tomorrow plus we should reexamine your mental medication. I asked is my liver test bad, and they said, Jeremy just come in tomorrow lets discuss this!

So apprehensive now, obviously there is an issue or they would just give me a result (s). So tomorrow morning I am gong to go in as a walk and see what happening.

I asked, " can I work as a furniture delivery guy again?" I needed to know this for medical clearance, they said, Jeremy "probably not but tomorrow the doctor will talk to you" wow! Oh man, my dream has just been crushed, these answers tell me it probably is not going to happen.

I am glad I did this, I am glad I derailed my life, I am glad I am able to share with this community, but at 34 it looks bad ( I had a very bad blood test before but kept drinking) very bad! So scared and apprehensive.

Damn looks like my addictions are going to kick me in the arse, what can I say, hopefully it isn't the worst of the worst, but looks like things are turning bad, DAMN, can't freak out, but really this looks like the end of the job I love and bad liver test and so forth!

I wanted my test today, but they refused, so that tells me that things might be real bad, wow, what the hell? Don't drink folks at 34 I am scared to death, and it looks like mental issues and drinking has ended a job I love so dearly.

Wow, I knew it, I knew I did myself in, but kept drinking, so much regret, please friends, pray, wish, think about me what ever. So @$#@ing scared, what has happened.

Stay safe and sober friends, let me keep you alive keeping me alive.

SoberLeigh

TDG, you are in my thoughts and prayers. SR stands beside you.

dingodog

I'm praying for you. I hope the outcome isn't as bad as you are thinking. Your post today has really helped me put my own troubles in perspective. Thank you and praying things will be ok for you.

Soberpotamus

You're in my thoughts, TDG... hang in there. May not be as bad as you're expecting.

Spinach

Thought are with you.
Keep sober good luck with your medical team.
John.

Mountainmanbob

I have known many to come into the Sober Program
very sick in mind, body and soul
that stayed sober
and in a short while were surprised how much healing had gone on

I hope and pray that you will ((be one of those))

MM

GotGrace

My thoughts and prayers are with you, TDG. Big hugs to you. Let us know how it goes tomorrow.

Jsober

Thoughts and prayers with you. I know it's hard- but just try to wait and see before reacting.

chicory

TDG- I have seen a lot of folks scared to death about what their results were gonna be. I have seen them relieved a lot of times, and I have seen people heal from some pretty bad liver damage.
so hang tight, and try not to think the worst. I know its nearly impossible for me , but know that others are praying and thinking of you, and will be here for you.

Soberwolf

Thoughts and prayers TDG

So samazed with your posting such good positivity hang in there !!

Anna

Jeremy, I'm sorry that you have to wait and that things look bad right now. But, hang on and wait and see what the dr actually says to you tomorrow.

I am sending good thoughts your way.

Cleomie

TDG,
I've enjoyed reading your post over the months.... Now it's our turn to be there for you. Please know I'll be thinking and praying for you in the morning. I do think its so insensitive of them to put you off like that... Of course you're going to be scared to death.anybody would. This is going to be a long nite for you. Stay strong. You're not alone.

johnnybsober

Tdg. I can only imagine how you are feeling right now, but it is best that you just try to rest tonight and let tomorrow bring what it will bring.

My god grant you peace.

biminiblue

Thoughts and prayers for you, Jeremy.

Thank you for sharing your story, you may have saved someone's life today by posting this.

SoberJohn

Don't think the worst until you get the full report from your doc. Keep your chin up.

Waterfalls2014

TDG I'm thinking of you.

KDBnSLC

Your anticipation about tomorrow might be worse than anything the doc says to you.
Stay positive, don't drink and let us know how you're doing tomorrow.

ccam1973

Thoughts and prayers to you jeremy. Try to get some rest tonight.

Gronk

They never should have said anything, and played stupid if pressed by you. That is terrible. Anyway, you have no idea until you talk to the Dr. Try not to read between then lines. You will fnd out the truth soon enough.

In the meantime, be happy that you have finally stopped poisoning yourself making it worse.

Good luck tomorrow, I hope it is better than you fear.

EJ43

Jeremy, thinking of you. Hang in there, we all support you.