5 months and 3 days
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5 months and 3 days
Milestone!
Recently i've been to an event. I met a nice girl, and since i'm sober i avoided getting into affairs. So, i was anxious and uncomfortable. As usual!
Since i was anxious about talking to the girl, i remembered how every single time in a moment like this i was drinking to ease tension and loosen inhibitions.
We were given a glass of champagne. I spent some time with it in my hand, not because i wanted, but because of the etiquette.
Distracted by conversation with others, i forgot what glass i have in hand and reached it to my mouth. The second I smelled the liquid, i was instantly overwhelmed with feelings of agony, despair, and anxiety. I remembered in tiny detail the horrors of my last binge. I had to go on the porch, i couldn't concentrate on the discussion anymore.
Now i smelled alcohol before in my sobriety, hard liquor and beer. It didn't triggered any response because that time i did it conscious.
But this is the first time i almost drank it without being aware, and i am grateful that my brain responded almost instantly. A little too violent, but damn useful!
BTW, i didn't get the girl. Maybe in another 5 months...
Recently i've been to an event. I met a nice girl, and since i'm sober i avoided getting into affairs. So, i was anxious and uncomfortable. As usual!
Since i was anxious about talking to the girl, i remembered how every single time in a moment like this i was drinking to ease tension and loosen inhibitions.
We were given a glass of champagne. I spent some time with it in my hand, not because i wanted, but because of the etiquette.
Distracted by conversation with others, i forgot what glass i have in hand and reached it to my mouth. The second I smelled the liquid, i was instantly overwhelmed with feelings of agony, despair, and anxiety. I remembered in tiny detail the horrors of my last binge. I had to go on the porch, i couldn't concentrate on the discussion anymore.
Now i smelled alcohol before in my sobriety, hard liquor and beer. It didn't triggered any response because that time i did it conscious.
But this is the first time i almost drank it without being aware, and i am grateful that my brain responded almost instantly. A little too violent, but damn useful!
BTW, i didn't get the girl. Maybe in another 5 months...
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Good job on not falling off the wagon.
I would add however: Don't take champagne from people. You don't drink anymore. There is no etiquette I know of that requires you to accept booze you don't intend to drink, especially if you're in recovery. Nobody in their right mind wants you to accept an offered glass of booze if you're in recovery, either, so you're not doing anyone any favors by playing along. If you don't drink, you say, "sorry, I don't drink", or, "sorry, no thank you", and you don't ever get one arm-lift-and-glass-to-lips away from a train wreck.
I would add however: Don't take champagne from people. You don't drink anymore. There is no etiquette I know of that requires you to accept booze you don't intend to drink, especially if you're in recovery. Nobody in their right mind wants you to accept an offered glass of booze if you're in recovery, either, so you're not doing anyone any favors by playing along. If you don't drink, you say, "sorry, I don't drink", or, "sorry, no thank you", and you don't ever get one arm-lift-and-glass-to-lips away from a train wreck.
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