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New here, need a support system
Greeting everyone!
Oh where to begin. The last four years have been the most difficult years I've ever been through. 2012-2013 was especially hard. I was battling an eating disorder along with drug abuse, my grandfather got diagnosed with stage four lung cancer, and my great-grandmother who I was especially close to started declining in health; the result was she has to go into a nursing home. She died in March on her Birthday, the same day we had to put our cat to sleep. It was around this time that I decided to get my life back, and overcome my eating disorder and drug abuse problem. It was a bumpy road with many relapses, but slowly I was moving towards a healthier lifestyle. June comes and my grandfather is really not doing well. There were a few hospital visits, the last of which they made the decision to stop all treatment and bring hospice in. I relapsed and he passed away in July. However I pulled myself back together and got my life on track again.
I started college in September and it was like a fresh start. Midway through the first semester I began to feel depressed, and it only worsened. This is when I started using alcohol, but very infrequently. As time went on I developed a body image problem that made and still makes going out in public a huge challenge. Looking back I guess I've always had a body image issue, but it was miniscule and didn't control my life. Things only got worse, and I started drinking more.
I sometimes worry that I'm going crazy because I feel like my life is not in order. I kept everything inside for so long and now it has basically taken over my life. I always tell myself I am level-headed and it's just my emotions surfacing, but I guess I need reassurance.
I have recently started energy tapping (EFT) to try and deal with these emotions.
Oh where to begin. The last four years have been the most difficult years I've ever been through. 2012-2013 was especially hard. I was battling an eating disorder along with drug abuse, my grandfather got diagnosed with stage four lung cancer, and my great-grandmother who I was especially close to started declining in health; the result was she has to go into a nursing home. She died in March on her Birthday, the same day we had to put our cat to sleep. It was around this time that I decided to get my life back, and overcome my eating disorder and drug abuse problem. It was a bumpy road with many relapses, but slowly I was moving towards a healthier lifestyle. June comes and my grandfather is really not doing well. There were a few hospital visits, the last of which they made the decision to stop all treatment and bring hospice in. I relapsed and he passed away in July. However I pulled myself back together and got my life on track again.
I started college in September and it was like a fresh start. Midway through the first semester I began to feel depressed, and it only worsened. This is when I started using alcohol, but very infrequently. As time went on I developed a body image problem that made and still makes going out in public a huge challenge. Looking back I guess I've always had a body image issue, but it was miniscule and didn't control my life. Things only got worse, and I started drinking more.
I sometimes worry that I'm going crazy because I feel like my life is not in order. I kept everything inside for so long and now it has basically taken over my life. I always tell myself I am level-headed and it's just my emotions surfacing, but I guess I need reassurance.
I have recently started energy tapping (EFT) to try and deal with these emotions.
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Join Date: Aug 2014
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Really honest post big stride taken there
Sorry to hear that I've lost quite a bit of family through cancer it is horrible completely relate
Hang in there I hope that energy tap works
Keep posting and good luck
Sorry to hear that I've lost quite a bit of family through cancer it is horrible completely relate
Hang in there I hope that energy tap works
Keep posting and good luck
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