3rd Time's The Charm
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3rd Time's The Charm
Ok, I'm ready to give sobriety a try again. Scratch that...I'm determined to NEVER drink again. Here's a brief history:
Tried tapering off booze back about 3 or 4 months ago. Ended up in the ER diagnosed with acute alcohol withdrawal. They prescribed me oxazepam (a God send) and it worked great. I was highly focused and literally had zero desire to drink. The pain with the withdrawals was so bad I swore I'd never put myself through that again. I never truly committed to never drinking again, though. I thought one day I'd be able to BBQ with a beer or two. Or enjoy a half a bottle of wine during a movie. Well, I made it 28 days. That 28th day was the best I had felt in YEARS. Lost 25lbs, was full of energy, bounding out of bed every morning...all that good stuff. So I rewarded myself...I bought a bottle of wine. I nursed that bottle for two days. Never even got a buzz. That's when it finally hit home...it's not the wine/vodka/whiskey I like so much. I like being drunk.
I love it. I love that numb feeling. I love how freeing it feels. How it helps me relax. Like a bottle full of magic.
So that one bottle quickly reverted back to my old drinking volumes. That lasted about a month and I decided I had slid enough. I quit again.
2nd quit lasted about a week and a half. That was about a month and a half ago. Nightly drinking, deep buzz. Gained all my weight back, poor sleep, no motivation or energy. I've had enough. Today is the day I stop the slide. Went back to the doc and he prescribed me some pills. And this time I have a plan.
Diet: I learned all about green tea and B vitamins during my first dry up. I stocked up on them tonight. Plus I've found a local support group at a church. It's not AA but it's about addiction. Im also renewing my relationship with Jesus.
This isn't easy, but it is exciting. There are only pros to quiting the drink...no cons. I can't wait until I'm completely in control of my life and not dependent on any substance. Thank you all for your support. Here's to sobriety!
Tried tapering off booze back about 3 or 4 months ago. Ended up in the ER diagnosed with acute alcohol withdrawal. They prescribed me oxazepam (a God send) and it worked great. I was highly focused and literally had zero desire to drink. The pain with the withdrawals was so bad I swore I'd never put myself through that again. I never truly committed to never drinking again, though. I thought one day I'd be able to BBQ with a beer or two. Or enjoy a half a bottle of wine during a movie. Well, I made it 28 days. That 28th day was the best I had felt in YEARS. Lost 25lbs, was full of energy, bounding out of bed every morning...all that good stuff. So I rewarded myself...I bought a bottle of wine. I nursed that bottle for two days. Never even got a buzz. That's when it finally hit home...it's not the wine/vodka/whiskey I like so much. I like being drunk.
I love it. I love that numb feeling. I love how freeing it feels. How it helps me relax. Like a bottle full of magic.
So that one bottle quickly reverted back to my old drinking volumes. That lasted about a month and I decided I had slid enough. I quit again.
2nd quit lasted about a week and a half. That was about a month and a half ago. Nightly drinking, deep buzz. Gained all my weight back, poor sleep, no motivation or energy. I've had enough. Today is the day I stop the slide. Went back to the doc and he prescribed me some pills. And this time I have a plan.
Diet: I learned all about green tea and B vitamins during my first dry up. I stocked up on them tonight. Plus I've found a local support group at a church. It's not AA but it's about addiction. Im also renewing my relationship with Jesus.
This isn't easy, but it is exciting. There are only pros to quiting the drink...no cons. I can't wait until I'm completely in control of my life and not dependent on any substance. Thank you all for your support. Here's to sobriety!
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Originally Posted by Anna 
It sounds like you're ready to make this work!
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I'd also like to add that my job does random drug and breathalyzer tests. It's such a relief knowing I won't have to worry about the breathalyzer after drinking a large quantity of booze the night before.
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