Nearly dead after a blackout
I'm grateful you're alive as well.
I hope this becomes a turning point in your life and you'll encounter smooth water as you sail through this life.
Find strength, learn and remember we are all here for each other.
I hope this becomes a turning point in your life and you'll encounter smooth water as you sail through this life.
Find strength, learn and remember we are all here for each other.
Thankyou for your kind words. There is a fighter in me, I know it. I just have to engage with her instead of letting that evil voice that lures me in. I did something tonight I don't usually do when (insanely) the thought of a drink came into my head. I prayed for it to be removed. I dunno who or what or whatever I was praying to, but it helped, and as well as coming on here, tonight has been a small step forwards. I guess I will add praying to my tool list. My pride doesn't like that, but whatever will help.
That's good, Try18. To be frank, your pride would let you die. Your pride would block your way to recovery. If you can name one good thing your pride has ever done for you, I'll eat my hat. If you ask for help now when you know you need it, you never have to feel this way again!
Prayer is the only thing that keeps me going.
I'm glad you're still with us, Try.
You're going to beat this. You've had a huge awakening this week, I can feel it in your posts. This is the turning point.
I'm glad you're still with us, Try.
You're going to beat this. You've had a huge awakening this week, I can feel it in your posts. This is the turning point.
I'm so glad you posted this. More so, I'm glad you were able.
I think that poor passerby was also fortunate to have an opportunity to share in humanity.
Celebrate your new found life by making it count.
I think that poor passerby was also fortunate to have an opportunity to share in humanity.
Celebrate your new found life by making it count.
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Try18, I don't know what meds you are on or for what but please don't go off them unless the doctor says it is okay. My cousin is bi-polar and when she's manic she thinks, I feel great, I don't need meds and that's when everything happens. A chemical imbalance won't cure itself and you could harm yourself. I had to distance myself from her because she was very abusive and recently tried to locate her only to find she lost the career she loved to alcoholism and had to sell the home her father built with his own hands that she swore she would never sell. Paid off, she never had to worry for a mortgage or rent again the rest of her life and alcoholism robbed her of that security as well.
Get permission from an MD (or GP in the UK I guess) before going off prescribed meds, please!
Get permission from an MD (or GP in the UK I guess) before going off prescribed meds, please!
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Good for you on day three! I try to use my fear as a motivator. My being afraid keeps me away from the first drink. Complacency is what will get me and I know it! Hang in there, keep moving forward and stay here with us!
I know I need to be on prescribed meds. Coming off them was a recipe for disaster in the first place. You are so right, soberjuly, it was not ok.
EJ43 it's funny you should say that about fear. I was discussing that after a meeting today and realised that for me, and I can only speak for myself here, fear of alcohol has never kept me sober for long. I need the works, all the tools I can get. Because for me that fear unbelievably disappears again, every time, no matter how dire a situation alcohol consumption gets me into. That in itself is quite frightening.
Thankyou so much for all your helpful and kind responses. I feel very humbled. Off to another meeting now with my sponsor and will come back on SR when I get in tonight
I hope you are all having a good Saturday x
EJ43 it's funny you should say that about fear. I was discussing that after a meeting today and realised that for me, and I can only speak for myself here, fear of alcohol has never kept me sober for long. I need the works, all the tools I can get. Because for me that fear unbelievably disappears again, every time, no matter how dire a situation alcohol consumption gets me into. That in itself is quite frightening.
Thankyou so much for all your helpful and kind responses. I feel very humbled. Off to another meeting now with my sponsor and will come back on SR when I get in tonight
I hope you are all having a good Saturday x
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Thank you Try18 for posting your story. I've been suicidal during blackouts too. Because of my secretive nature around me being an alcoholic, I'm finding out (through SR) that I'm not alone... that there will always be someone here who has done and been through ANYTHING I have experienced. So happy you're alive. Your story has helped me a lot today. Thank you.
Trying, You are one of the reasons I stayed sober during a rough bit a while back. You were in chat and said we would stay sober together that day. We did. I hope you find the strength and peace to continue on your journey with me. I know you can do this. Be well.
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