melki

I'm in! Daily routine. biminiblue, I find your posts very helpful.

Nuudawn, thank you for the thread! I struggle with a lot of the same issues.

Ok, I'm off to seriously try meditation now...

KAD

It must be something in the air because I've been dealing with more intense anxiety for going on a month now! Actually, it's gotten a bit better since vacation last week, but I can still relate to the feeling that some storm or something is looming nearby. It sounds like you are taking care of yourself, though, acknowledging what you're feeling, acknowledging that it does make you think of drinking, but not acting on that temptation and choosing healthier options instead. Hang in there. It will pass. That's what I keep telling myself.

readerbaby71

Yes! There are some days I have to repeat to myself "feelings aren't facts" ALL DAY LONG. But it works.

Soberpotamus

What's this about meditation?

I've been struggling with it too! Can't seem to make it daily yet. I'm all in for a meditation accountability group thing with you all who are meditating.

Nuu... you are doing well to voice your feelings, struggles, and epiphanies. Keep talkin'

Glad the AA meeting helped.

I haven't been able to read my daily meditations lately and am struggling as a result.

Anyway... I'm thinking about you. Hang in there. You are pulling through this just fine.

biminiblue

oops. Me and my big mouth on the daily meditation accountability.

I'm not one to organize people or check in daily. Call it lazy or free-spirited, your choice

I'll go meditate now, though. At least I can do one day. If someone starts a thread, I'll play.

Hi, Nuu!

melki

Haha, too late now! You started it. I tried to meditate just now. I'm not sure if it qualifies because I ended up dozing off. So it was more of a nap really, but very peaceful. I still consider it a good honest first try so I'm 1 for 1 now. Jokes aside, I take it seriously and did some research.

That's me too.

melki

There:
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...challenge.html
Join me!

SoberLeigh

You are doing beautifully, Nuu; it's not always a walk on the park, is it? But you are workin' it - nice job, Nuu.

Nuudawn

Thanks all. Yesterday wasn't easy...well in truth, it hasn't been a walk in the park since Monday. I felt like I was hanging by my fingernails yesterday. Today ...well, seems alright. I struggled again with buying smokes after work but realized that THAT just doesn't work for anything in my life either. I am striving for emotional sobriety..so I guess the cherry cheesecake waffle cone kinda failed on that front lol. Ah well...
I have a health and wellness business for heaven's sakes!

Physician heal thyself lol.

SoberLeigh

I see you as a strong and wise woman, Nuu. I have complete confidence in you.

dwtbd

Hey give a gal a little break wouldya.
She just successfully stared down some whack job dangling the lie of a false comfort and the lie of consequence free respite. It looks it quieted down , but it was a real pia the last couple days and she told that bugger to shove off. Give the lady a cone of whatever she wants.

SoberLeigh

I'd make it for her myself if I could.!!!!!

Soberpotamus

Cherry cheesecake waffle cone... *drool* Mmmmmmmm.

biminiblue

I tackled my weight issues first, then started drinking and found I didn't eat, which I turned into some deluded bonus side-effect in my mind.

Then stopped drinking and almost went back to my eat-all-the-ice-cream ways.

I managed to stop myself, but just barely.

Ice cream is at least somewhat nutritious.



What? Protein, calcium, potassium, carbs, fat! Nutrition!

Nuudawn

I have oft referred to myself as a "drunk-o-rexic" in my 30's. I worked out 4-5 times a week and pretty much lived on broth soup, apples, meat, broccoli and asparagus...and WINE and more wine. I was often skipped food calories in favour of wine.

Soberpotamus

I did that too, Nuudawn! Mostly in my 20s though. But yeah... I tried to calculate the calories to allow for all the wine.

Venecia

Worse things than a cherry cheesecake waffle cone!

Nuudawn

I have suddenly become nostalgic for talking to people on the phone. It suddenly occurred to me that I really only require some sort of portable keyboard device with me at all times to communicate with pretty much everyone in my world with the exception of my parents..the only folks in my sphere who do not text.

It's sad really.

readerbaby71

Eating disorders and drug/alcohol addiction go hand in hand. They're really not very different. Ugh. What addiction HAVEN'T I dealt with in my life in one way or another. LOL

VikingGF

Also guilty of trading food for wine!

Nuu- Sorry to hear of your rough patch. Hope it's getting better. I always look for your posts and please know your words help me.

Keep on keepin' on.

Lisa.