New user w/ questions
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New user w/ questions
Hello Friends,
Paul here I have two great kids and one very special wife was has been through a lot with me. Problem is you would you think a great career / and great life Problem is: I use Fentanyl (patches / actiq), Roxicodone, Hydrocodone, Xanax, Ativan, Oxycodone, whatever I have and is pharmaceutical grade. I am good to go until I end up overdose in the hospital & then I break my wifes hurt & she hast to lie to our kids yet again.
I have done some dumb things recently that thankfully like licking the Fentanyl gel ouf 100 mcg patches and sometime i swear it feels likes my breathing would just stop slow down enough for me to stop playing around
Anyone offer anywords of wisdom OR the obvious advice AS I know its a huge problem w/ nothing good happening at the end.
Paul here I have two great kids and one very special wife was has been through a lot with me. Problem is you would you think a great career / and great life Problem is: I use Fentanyl (patches / actiq), Roxicodone, Hydrocodone, Xanax, Ativan, Oxycodone, whatever I have and is pharmaceutical grade. I am good to go until I end up overdose in the hospital & then I break my wifes hurt & she hast to lie to our kids yet again.
I have done some dumb things recently that thankfully like licking the Fentanyl gel ouf 100 mcg patches and sometime i swear it feels likes my breathing would just stop slow down enough for me to stop playing around
Anyone offer anywords of wisdom OR the obvious advice AS I know its a huge problem w/ nothing good happening at the end.
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Sorry you're going through such a tough period. I don't know much about those drugs; you might want to post this in the section dedicated to drug addiction. Someone that has more knowledge of the issue will probably come along soon.
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you really dont need any of that
truth
i know you probably dont wanna hear how blessed you are in this world but please atleast take that in
you dont need any of those manmade drug to function in this world!! I loved the feeling of xanax and still do although i cant remember the last time ive taken one.
you do not need it, all crutches! best of luck man you got this you have way too much life and people who care and love and rely on you, you got this its hard and sometimes feels like "for what" but i really think u would be best without any!
dont wanna be insensitive, i havent used any of the other drugs you named, but those xanax' will have your life in a dark pit making horrible decisions, speaking for myself and a few good friends who still use!
truth
i know you probably dont wanna hear how blessed you are in this world but please atleast take that in
you dont need any of those manmade drug to function in this world!! I loved the feeling of xanax and still do although i cant remember the last time ive taken one.
you do not need it, all crutches! best of luck man you got this you have way too much life and people who care and love and rely on you, you got this its hard and sometimes feels like "for what" but i really think u would be best without any!
dont wanna be insensitive, i havent used any of the other drugs you named, but those xanax' will have your life in a dark pit making horrible decisions, speaking for myself and a few good friends who still use!
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Welcome Paul, tons of support here in the SR community!
I've got two wonderful kids and great wife as well. The kids are one of my biggest motivators for being sober today. I'm still early in recovery, but they are benefiting from my efforts in this battle.
You can choose to change and get your self better. You have to make the choice for yourself, and all those in your life will benefit from the results.
In my case, my kids deserve better than a dad whose only reality is in a bottle, box of wine or can of beer. They didn't bring my addiction into their lives, I DID!
You can do this, today can be day 1 of a better life without lies.
Best of luck.
I've got two wonderful kids and great wife as well. The kids are one of my biggest motivators for being sober today. I'm still early in recovery, but they are benefiting from my efforts in this battle.
You can choose to change and get your self better. You have to make the choice for yourself, and all those in your life will benefit from the results.
In my case, my kids deserve better than a dad whose only reality is in a bottle, box of wine or can of beer. They didn't bring my addiction into their lives, I DID!
You can do this, today can be day 1 of a better life without lies.
Best of luck.
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