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Hi- new here to the board. I went to rehab 7 years ago for opiate abuse and I'm rep-lapsed hard recently. I'm lucky I didn't over dose. I took the first step tonight and told my husband and plan calling my insurance to get started with a drug abuse counselor tomorrow. I feel like such a total failure. Could really use some support.

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There's lots of support here. Read around and post often!

Thank you so much.

We haven't truly failed until we've stopped trying. You are obviously taking steps to make changes. I for one am proud of you. It takes a great deal to finally admit to our problems with substances. But until we do that we can't do much else

:grouphug: things will get better

It's just so hard. I feel like I will never live a normal life. Why do I feel like I can't function without pills. I have such a beautiful life and I will lose it all for stupid pills. How could I do this to my family again? The next few days if withdrawals are going to be so hard.

It takes time to feel better. When things get rough, come here and post or read something for encouragement. We're quite a community!

Hi Stella, welcome to our family. Lots of experiences on this forum you may be able to relate to. Keep posting and reading, it's been a great help to myself and I know many others.

I don't believe addiction is something anyone ever plans on, It's not like you planned to do this to your family. I know the hardest part can be moving past the self-loathing.

Stay strong and know you are not alone by any means. Just because we have made mistakes does not mean we are defined by them

hi and welcome Stella :)

I used to wonder if I would ever have a normal life too...alcohol was my poison and I went back to it a lot...

Gradually tho I built up more and more support, and found more and more 'tools' for my recovery...

SR was great for both things. I'm really glad you found us :)

D

I am sure someone mentioned this already to you but..You have what I am sure a wonderful supportive husband & I am sure contacting your insurance provider work is the perfect first step

Paul

Welcome to the Forum Stella!! :wave: