Talking to my alcoholic voice (AV)
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Talking to my alcoholic voice (AV)
I have this evil, hard core partying, annoying, pestering man living inside me. Its my alcoholic voice, I named my AV Jack Daniels. Jack and me go way back, he was my counselor, my friend, and my sole love in life for a long time.
Jack is cunning and crafty! On Fridays Jack shows up in his finest suit wallet in hand and ready to part he is like, " hey bro we made it through another week, party tonight at the casino... bro we miss you just sit with us and have one" I am like Jack, " I gotta a meeting tonight, my family needs me bro, meeting and then I am going home" Jack retorts, " don't be so down on yourself, trust me you're going to be fine", I am like " Jack I am not fine, I have health problems and I am 34" Jack is like " pshhh bro a little gambling and booze bro like the old days" I am like " no really Jack just stop I can't and won't", "Whatever bro you downer" Jack says.
This battle in my head isn't confined to just Fridays it just rears its ugly head the most during weekends. Man I hate it, constant chronic Armageddon within my mind, a battle between good and evil.
Oh how these thoughts plague me, it causes anxiety and leaves me all sorts of messed up. However, I noticed Jack and his cousin Jose Cuervo ask me out less these days, but they are still there. They want me back at the club, its like those two are in perpetual party mode just minutes away. You know, but it becoming easier to just ignore them.
One time Jack told me " just one beer never killed anyone" Jack is right, one hasn't just killed anyone, one has killed multitudes of good, kind people, mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, sons daughters. Well for this weekend, when Jack or Jose call, my answer is a resounding no! Just one never killed anyone, just one has killed thousands or more. I won't be part of that! The battle in my head is slowly being won, but its a long and hard one.
TDG stay safe and sober friends
Jack is cunning and crafty! On Fridays Jack shows up in his finest suit wallet in hand and ready to part he is like, " hey bro we made it through another week, party tonight at the casino... bro we miss you just sit with us and have one" I am like Jack, " I gotta a meeting tonight, my family needs me bro, meeting and then I am going home" Jack retorts, " don't be so down on yourself, trust me you're going to be fine", I am like " Jack I am not fine, I have health problems and I am 34" Jack is like " pshhh bro a little gambling and booze bro like the old days" I am like " no really Jack just stop I can't and won't", "Whatever bro you downer" Jack says.
This battle in my head isn't confined to just Fridays it just rears its ugly head the most during weekends. Man I hate it, constant chronic Armageddon within my mind, a battle between good and evil.
Oh how these thoughts plague me, it causes anxiety and leaves me all sorts of messed up. However, I noticed Jack and his cousin Jose Cuervo ask me out less these days, but they are still there. They want me back at the club, its like those two are in perpetual party mode just minutes away. You know, but it becoming easier to just ignore them.
One time Jack told me " just one beer never killed anyone" Jack is right, one hasn't just killed anyone, one has killed multitudes of good, kind people, mothers, fathers, brothers, sisters, sons daughters. Well for this weekend, when Jack or Jose call, my answer is a resounding no! Just one never killed anyone, just one has killed thousands or more. I won't be part of that! The battle in my head is slowly being won, but its a long and hard one.
TDG stay safe and sober friends
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"Jack" will be here less and less but keep in mind that he will always be ready to pop its ugly head, it really never goes away and can wait in ambush silent for years.
The AVRT people recommend to acknowledge that the AV is here then just ignore it and not engage it.
In my case, my AV is very quiet but once in a while it will try. I found out that saying out loud: Shut up you moron then going on with whatever I was doing and hitting a meeting that day works wonders.
The AVRT people recommend to acknowledge that the AV is here then just ignore it and not engage it.
In my case, my AV is very quiet but once in a while it will try. I found out that saying out loud: Shut up you moron then going on with whatever I was doing and hitting a meeting that day works wonders.
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Jack is really not cunning and crafty. Jack is predictable. The only things he ever talks about relate to drinking or gambling, now or sometime in the future.
There is nothing jack will ever say that is not full of sh*t. I don't know about you, but if jack really were a real person, I would not waste any time engaging in conversation with him. Ever.
The extent of any interaction with my AV would be: "Oh, you again? Let me guess...you think we should have something to drink." *yawn* then I laugh at her and she shrinks away...like the useless b*tch that she is.
There is nothing jack will ever say that is not full of sh*t. I don't know about you, but if jack really were a real person, I would not waste any time engaging in conversation with him. Ever.
The extent of any interaction with my AV would be: "Oh, you again? Let me guess...you think we should have something to drink." *yawn* then I laugh at her and she shrinks away...like the useless b*tch that she is.
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