Day 21 - Nearly Relapsed Tonight
 

Fridays are by far always my most difficult day. However, this afternoon at work I was completely content and set on giving up and having no desire to remain sober anymore. However - I decided to delay my urge by going home first to decide if this is something that I really wanted to do. When I got back to my apartment, I still had a VERY strong urge to drink and still sort of had my mind made up that I would go out tonight. However, I decided to take a nap first. However, now that I have woken up from my nap - my strong cravings have went away and I know I will be fine.

I feel mixed emotions now - part of me feels disturbed that earlier I had completely given up (in a pre-meditated sort of way), but part of me feels at least I "survived another day".

You should be proud of yourself for making the right choice for yourself! Congratulations!

I hear ya, just have to ride it out anyway you can.

YAY for you!!! Day 22. . . here you come!!!

Fridays are hard to begin with - but each time you make it through it should be a little easier. Don't worry about what you thought - it's actions that count, and you did well :)

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I know this sounds like Martian language now, but honestly, I don't even notice Fridays anymore. My heart gets excited about 2 full days off ahead.

This is the same person, who just over a year ago, would tear up on the train on the way home, knowing I couldn't stay/participate in Friday drinks and that the hurdle of passing my liquor store lay ahead (it was literally across the road from my station).

It will pass!

Congrats on having a nap!

Thank you for the support everyone - SR definitely helps me

I understand talking yourself into being okay with going back to drinking, but no matter what we can talk our poor gullible selves into, if you have a problem with drinking, it's absolutely not okay. I'm glad you're still sober!

Congrats on beating the urge. For me burying myself into somthing helps alot. and not watching tv or video games but something that will make me think and really occupy my mind. I like to read nerdy tech things or work on some tinkering electronics project and doing those things are a lot easier now that im sober. I had one of those days today as well i think what got me through was thinking about one of the many reasons i quit. that reason is because friends and family have thought so low of me, and have said such awful things about me when i was drinking. I always thought no i am a good person and they think and say im terrible. Well i stay strong, I refuse to give in and prove them right. Thats what my user name means MYRESOLVE or "my determination" or "my willpower"

Glad you got through the urge. That's great. Congrats on 21 days! :)

Congratulations on making it through .

Just incase you've not read it here is a useful thread about cravings .

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...-cravings.html

Keep pushing through!! You're doing it!! :)