Thatdeliveryguy

I got sober because life had become insane, I got sober because I could no longer live me, I got sober because I wanted better for my family, I got sober because I knew that I was self destruction, had anxiety, hated me and wanted life to get better, and knew my next step was jail, or worse death.

A good friend in the forums (dee74) pointed out that I focus too much on me and my ego, and I would like to apologize to this forum for that, and make amends any way I can.

Really this habit ate me alive and still does eat me alive, I find myself living a new life and learning that I have to be vigilant and careful at all times.

Gosh anxiety attacks, constantly pushing myself to be better and move on, yet feeling like the past is just behind me. Such a heavy and hard burden to carry, but I am trying and striving and doing what I can do.

So folks, I can't say I have all the answers, but I know what answers I do I have, at times I derail from the nor, and have a prospective on things that are different, but ultimately I want sobriety for everyone.

Good day folks, as always stay safe and sober TDG

MythOfSisyphus

It's a process, TDG! I'm glad to see it's working for you.

Nuudawn

I like this post TDG. It just seems more organic or authentic or something..like there is a person behind the words..

DrakeCKC

Love this TDG... thanks!

Gamaur

Good post mate

desypete

we all have been there tdg thats how come we can see it in others when there stuck in it

a much better post
one day at time we learn to live this new way of living we can not change our old habits of living overnight, it takes time and effort to build up a new way of living in peace etc

alphaomega

This is a wonderful awakening. Congrats to you as you step onto your new path.

PurpleKnight

Great post TDG!! Keep pushing through!!

SoberComposer

I think a lot of us struggle with focusing on self. Since ive been trying to quit I discovered how self-absorbed I have been. Socially always talking about me.. it's embarrassing now that I'm aware of it. I guess it will work out with sobriety. It may be another reason I am so isolated (and have perferred it that way). But I really do want to be a part of something outside me.

Lol.. see there I go. I have said "I" or "me" 13 times in this post!

Thatdeliveryguy

Sobercompsor I feel your pain it takes these long timers in sobriety to point out what we are doing, and help us, bey hey know is half the battle right! I am an egotist to the nth degree at times. I must admit it has helped keep me sober on some level though.

DefconOne

Same old same old for me. Its either a bottle or a meeting today. Groundhog daze continues. Weekends suck.

jdooner

When sharing its better to use I or me, as you will be sharing your experience vs risking projecting. This tends to work well here.

TDG - Good job man, this is a big first step!