Not doing well........ :'-(
I have about 5 months sober now and have been tested often. The recent World Cup was excruciating for me and I largely watched it alone over 2 weeks because no one I know is watching that without a beer in their hand. I am not yet strong enough to be in that situation so I avoid them entirely.
As soon as the thought of drinking gets in my head, I immediately shoot it down and remember all the nights waking up in jail and the hurt and destruction I have reaped on myself and others. The urge then usually vanishes (but then replaced by guilt unfortunately haha)
As soon as the thought of drinking gets in my head, I immediately shoot it down and remember all the nights waking up in jail and the hurt and destruction I have reaped on myself and others. The urge then usually vanishes (but then replaced by guilt unfortunately haha)
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Well it is a big deal. You need to emotionally detach from your mother's warped opinion. She wasn't right. You ever done any work with a good counsellor Serindad?
I highly recommend it. Helped me tremendously..yet I am still a continuous work in progress. I am much better at trusting my own opinions though (and calling out that abusive self, loathing natter)..I have miles to go..but I'm better.
This! I have been using AVRT and it has saved my life. Basically I now realize that I can never drink again and I can never change my mind. No booze, no exceptions. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing again and again but expecting the results to be different. Time for another way!
Serenidad,
sorry to hear you are suffering. Try to take it easy, dont beat yourself up too bad, I know what you're going through. Deep breaths, and regain yourself. You can do it.
May love come down upon you. God Bless
sorry to hear you are suffering. Try to take it easy, dont beat yourself up too bad, I know what you're going through. Deep breaths, and regain yourself. You can do it.
May love come down upon you. God Bless
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Thanks everyone! I had to work all day so I just finally got a chance to read thru all of the comments.
Nuudawn...yes, I think counseling would be very helpful!
Someone else asked if I have read the rational recovery book. Not yet but gonna start ASAP!
Dee...you're right, maybe this time around a different program other than AA would work for me. Not a fan.
I appreciate all of you and thx for the private messages. Xo
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Nuudawn...yes, I think counseling would be very helpful!
Someone else asked if I have read the rational recovery book. Not yet but gonna start ASAP!
Dee...you're right, maybe this time around a different program other than AA would work for me. Not a fan.
I appreciate all of you and thx for the private messages. Xo
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