Remind me again why I'm here ...
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Remind me again why I'm here ...
... I'm about to fall off my wagon. I had a rotten day, and I worked hard outside and inside and that wine cooler would go down soooo smoothly. I don't want to get drunk, but I'm feeling like if I just had one, I'd be okay. I'd have it, get it over with, and be back here before anybody even posted a reply.
Wait a minute, it's coming back to me now. I never have just one. And I don't drink because I'm thirsty. And after I've had the drink my kids would be just as cranky and the dishes still wouldn't have done themselves ... again! And I'd pour myself another one.
So maybe, just maybe this time, I'll have a glass of tonic (I'm a New Englander, who else knows what that is?), read some more messages, then go do the dishes. Before I know it, this rotten day will be over, my kids will be asleep, and the British comedies will be on NH public television. Ah, life is good again.
Now I remember why I come here! Thanks folks!!
Take good care of yourselves and have a GREAT WEEKEND!!
Wait a minute, it's coming back to me now. I never have just one. And I don't drink because I'm thirsty. And after I've had the drink my kids would be just as cranky and the dishes still wouldn't have done themselves ... again! And I'd pour myself another one.
So maybe, just maybe this time, I'll have a glass of tonic (I'm a New Englander, who else knows what that is?), read some more messages, then go do the dishes. Before I know it, this rotten day will be over, my kids will be asleep, and the British comedies will be on NH public television. Ah, life is good again.
Now I remember why I come here! Thanks folks!!
Take good care of yourselves and have a GREAT WEEKEND!!
((( Twoboys )))
I am sorry you are havin a tough time . Sounds like you could use a little me time.The voice of this disease is very sneaky isint it ? Sounds like you have answered your own question . Hang in there ! This to shall pass and you and those two boys will be so much better off ... Trish
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Those boys WILL be better off with a sober mother, won't they?
I spend half my time thinking I want to get sober for myself, and the other half thinking I need to get sober for them. I guess it doesn't really matter in the long run as long as I get ... and stay ... sober.
Gotta log off now and rid our garage of one fat racoon tennant - he found the birdseed smorgasbord. If he posted to the gratitude list he'd probably be thankful for opposable thumbs, because he was able to unscrew a big plastic jar lid to get at the birdseed!
I spend half my time thinking I want to get sober for myself, and the other half thinking I need to get sober for them. I guess it doesn't really matter in the long run as long as I get ... and stay ... sober.
Gotta log off now and rid our garage of one fat racoon tennant - he found the birdseed smorgasbord. If he posted to the gratitude list he'd probably be thankful for opposable thumbs, because he was able to unscrew a big plastic jar lid to get at the birdseed!
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Originally Posted by twoboys
Gotta log off now and rid our garage of one fat racoon tennant - he found the birdseed smorgasbord. If he posted to the gratitude list he'd probably be thankful for opposable thumbs, because he was able to unscrew a big plastic jar lid to get at the birdseed!
i'm still grinning seeing a racoon making a gratitude post.
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Hi Twoboys
I enjoyed reading your post, and the way you thought aloud as you shared your thought process in order to 'Think Think Think' your way out of that drink Good for you! And thanks for teaching me something; I didn't know that raccoons had opposable thumbs - I wish I had those - I could use some help opening a few jars myself
God Bless
Love Rowan
I enjoyed reading your post, and the way you thought aloud as you shared your thought process in order to 'Think Think Think' your way out of that drink Good for you! And thanks for teaching me something; I didn't know that raccoons had opposable thumbs - I wish I had those - I could use some help opening a few jars myself
God Bless
Love Rowan
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twoboys you may have had a rotten day but if you would have listened to that little voice chances are you would have made it that much worse. instead of having a drink you listened to your voice of reason. give youself a pat on the back. i hope your tomorrow will be a better today.
((((twoboys)))) i am glad you made it through. i like sparkling mineral water in nice glassware... ooh and one of those tiny umbrellas! and i love racoons even though they are rotten sometimes! your post was inspiring yay! i didn't know racoons liked birdseed. love-alice
Hi TwoBoys
Well done on working that one through. For me a drink changes a very grey area into a very dark hole in minutes. Well done. Save that moment, slip it in the memory banks.
We don't have racoons over here, they always seem so cute to me, but I bet they can be buggers
much love
JC
Well done on working that one through. For me a drink changes a very grey area into a very dark hole in minutes. Well done. Save that moment, slip it in the memory banks.
We don't have racoons over here, they always seem so cute to me, but I bet they can be buggers
much love
JC
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Off topic, but FYI racoons don't just like birdseed. I have a photo of one eating a bowl of doritos my kids left out one night; and (I swear this is true) they got into containers of USED MOTOR OIL that we're storing til hazmat recycling day. What a mess. (But you know what, I think they're cute, too!)
I appreciate all who have posted. It is important that we listen to that voice of reason, which is so often outbellowed by our desires-du-jour. As long as today is not yesterday, I'm a little safer. After all, I'm further along in my recovery, aren't I? Thanks so much for your help. I know I couldn't do this alone.
I appreciate all who have posted. It is important that we listen to that voice of reason, which is so often outbellowed by our desires-du-jour. As long as today is not yesterday, I'm a little safer. After all, I'm further along in my recovery, aren't I? Thanks so much for your help. I know I couldn't do this alone.
Originally Posted by twoboys
Gotta log off now and rid our garage of one fat racoon tennant - he found the birdseed smorgasbord. If he posted to the gratitude list he'd probably be thankful for opposable thumbs, because he was able to unscrew a big plastic jar lid to get at the birdseed!
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