Just saw i've been a member for over a year and never posted....
Just saw i've been a member for over a year and never posted....
I've been off and on this site for over a year. I just noticed that in my profile. So I ask myself why did I start reading on this site....the need to make a change. I guess the need was there in the back of my mind but wanting to, REALLY wanting to had to catch up. This is day 4 sober for me and I can't remember that long of a stretch with no alcohol in, at least, the past 5 years. I actually feel pretty good, if only people would stop asking me to go out for drinks....
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Join Date: May 2014
Posts: 596
I've been off and on this site for over a year. I just noticed that in my profile. So I ask myself why did I start reading on this site....the need to make a change. I guess the need was there in the back of my mind but wanting to, REALLY wanting to had to catch up. This is day 4 sober for me and I can't remember that long of a stretch with no alcohol in, at least, the past 5 years. I actually feel pretty good, if only people would stop asking me to go out for drinks....
Why is it so difficult to admit the truth?
I have many supportive friends, too supportive in the fact that they never said a word about my problem. Except for my sister's occasional, "what is your problem?". We could go out and I'd drink double what they had and go home and drink more. I have known for some time that I needed to quit but didn't want to admit it to myself. I just couldn't understand how things got so out of hand and I lost control. Kept thinking I'm going to be able to have one or two again....that is just not the case. This realization only took me 5 years...what can I say, I'm a slow learner.
Thanks for all the welcome posts and the challenge that I'll be back tomorrow.
Thanks for all the welcome posts and the challenge that I'll be back tomorrow.
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Join Date: May 2014
Posts: 596
I have many supportive friends, too supportive in the fact that they never said a word about my problem. Except for my sister's occasional, "what is your problem?". We could go out and I'd drink double what they had and go home and drink more. I have known for some time that I needed to quit but didn't want to admit it to myself. I just couldn't understand how things got so out of hand and I lost control. Kept thinking I'm going to be able to have one or two again....that is just not the case. This realization only took me 5 years...what can I say, I'm a slow learner.
Thanks for all the welcome posts and the challenge that I'll be back tomorrow.
Thanks for all the welcome posts and the challenge that I'll be back tomorrow.
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Join Date: Jul 2014
Location: in the city by the bay
Posts: 605
Welcome Zen, I love everything Zen...I wish my house could be Zen and my garden could be Zen but I have kids and they kind of ruin my whole Zen dream...maybe someday
Anyhow, congrats on Day 4!
Anyhow, congrats on Day 4!
Congrats on 5 days, Zen! When someone asks you to go have drinks, rather than decline try suggesting an alternative, like coffee or lunch. You will soon figure out which friends/relationships have foundations greater than a mere excuse to get hammered.
Welcome Zen.. I felt the same regarding posting but as soon as you make that first step I find it's such a huge relief!! I've just had a relapse & was scared to admit it but as soon as I did and saw the replies makes me realise I'm not alone in this journey & sure that it will make me stronger.
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