wow...
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wow...
wow, does it get better...
2 weeks ago I was a mess...I was on Day 4, my body was still a mess, my thinking still a mess.
Now, not bloated, not puffy. I look like a different person and I am getting better every day.
The best is that after 2 weeks, my thinking started to clear up. I just can't believe my husband. He just gave and gave and did everything for me and I was a mean drunk most of the time. I know he went to work and thought why do I bother?
Yesterday he was looking at me like he snagged the prom queen.
The thought of drinking and the way it slows you down, mentally and physically, I couldn't bear right now. The way it made me anxious about everything.
I used to read, alcohol increases anxiety, I thought, no, it relaxes me. Once you are really clean of it, you realize, it does increase anxiety, unbearably.
I feel like I am back in the world of the living.
2 weeks ago I was a mess...I was on Day 4, my body was still a mess, my thinking still a mess.
Now, not bloated, not puffy. I look like a different person and I am getting better every day.
The best is that after 2 weeks, my thinking started to clear up. I just can't believe my husband. He just gave and gave and did everything for me and I was a mean drunk most of the time. I know he went to work and thought why do I bother?
Yesterday he was looking at me like he snagged the prom queen.
The thought of drinking and the way it slows you down, mentally and physically, I couldn't bear right now. The way it made me anxious about everything.
I used to read, alcohol increases anxiety, I thought, no, it relaxes me. Once you are really clean of it, you realize, it does increase anxiety, unbearably.
I feel like I am back in the world of the living.
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I did an IOP (outpatient rehab) and when I was on day 13 (and had started sleeping better again and eating healthier), a couple of the members of the group remarked that I looked like a different person and had so much more energy. It's amazing how things improve once we give ourselves some time away from the booze. You're at the point where the fog is lifting, but in a few more weeks you'll see that the way you see things and view things in life may start to change as well. Alcohol warps our bodies and brains. That's just a fact.
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Thanks for all the kind words of support. That said, 18 days is 18 days. I will probably need to lurk around here until I reach, at least, a year's sobriety. I don't trust myself yet...that will take a long time after the crappy way I acted while abusing alcohol.
All I know is, 3 weeks ago I drove very intoxicated with 3 kids in the car. It's still early yet.
All I know is, 3 weeks ago I drove very intoxicated with 3 kids in the car. It's still early yet.
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This is amazing. I'm new to recovery because I recently relapsed. I love to read. I read all the time and that is what preserved my recovery prior to my lapse. I'm so inspired by you feeling so different so fast!
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