Voice in my head - funny So I was sitting with my therapist talking about my drinking. He said, "so do you want to cut back?" I heard myself telling him, "No, I know that won't work. I want to quit entirely." I say, WHAT? Who said that? No, I don't want to quit! OMG, I can't quit! But it was too late. The real me had spoken. The dye was cast. |
Sometimes in our own minds we know what we really have to do, even if we don't want to do it, I tried to moderate and cut back for a long time, but deep down I knew the answer was abstinence, but I didn't want to admit it, I eventually had to admit it to myself!! |
I remember asking my counselor if he thought I was an alcoholic. I remember him saying....."Absolutely....." I sat and waited for him to continue but he was done speaking. I was waiting or wanting for him to say "absolutely not" even though I knew the truth.... |
If I had a dime for every time when in the throes of despair and pleading to the heaven's as to why my life sucked..if I had a dime for every time I heard that "quit drinking" whisper...well, I would have a helluva lot of dimes...like a few thousand dollars...that's a lot of dimes. |
Go for it! You can do this. |
Great post. Admitting the truth is the hardest part, but is also the first step in getting healthy. |
Oh the Voice! It's crazy how it sounds just like YOUR voice. That other voice has the mentality of a 2 year old. ME! ME! ME! ME!. My has gotten much more quiet. Stay strong. |
It's good that you told him, now when you see him you will always recall the confession. |
"Cutting back" is damn near impossible for an alcoholic. Quitting altogether is the best thing to do. :) |
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